Unqualified Preacher

Someone's mother was telling me one day...
Ada orang-orang surau datang rumah nak jemput orang taman tu pergi dengar ceramah agama Jumaat ni. And that aunty was annoyed and said to me, "As I know ceramah agama is controlled by the Government. I bet this has a hidden agenda to it. Entah-entah pasal politik. Entah apa-apa dia nak ceramahkan."

Aku dah la baru menghadapi trauma and pissful day aritu, malas la nak cakap banyak-banyak. Ye la, aku ni siapa? Sedangkan orang-orang surau pun dia rasa macam tak betul, inikan aku?

My arguement is, do we really need to be 'certified' to bring good news to people? To warn people of danger? To remind people the correct path.

Do you know that the khutbah every Friday written by the Government always has its hidden agenda? Maybe not all the time, pardon me. But there were times it was totally crap, talking about yearly bonuses the Government gave their people, political influenced speeches and all. I know because this is what my hubby tells me. And once in a while I listened to it on TV during my 'pantang' days. So much sometimes I felt it was unnecessary.

Orang surau buat ceramah agama betul-betul bagi ceramah pasal agama la, takdenye pasal politik ke apa. Selalunya dorang cerita la pasal nabi-nabi atau pasal kebahagiaan hidup akhirat atau kehidupan cara Islam sebenarnya atau pasal dajjal dan lain-lain lah. Kalau pasal politik sekali pun, kalau tanak dengar, jangan la dengar. Dalam masjid/surau mana elok cerita pasal duniawi lagipun. They should know better.

I wanted to tell that aunty all that. I wanted to say that I am sad that most of us are all brainwashed to believe that only the 'qualified' may preach.

So, as for me, I am an unqualified preacher too. I don't wear the tudung. I wear sexy clothes. I swear most of the time. So it makes me unqualified to bring people good news or warn people of the surroundings that fogged (still fogging) our eyes to see the real truth.

Why do people jump or become defensive when I speak of Islamic laws? Is it because I'm not qualified? I don't have to be qualified because it is the only law we should know. Our minds are made to believe that the system we live in is correct. Plus, this is not about being religious. This is about our way of life. This is about being manipulated by Satan (okay I'm going too deep again).

Anyway, again, because I am 'unqualified' that I failed to convince people Allah's law. I preached the wrong way.

Sedih bila orang gelakkan cara 'kuno' Allah. Tak sesuai katanya.



Sad to say, I, too, am still trapped in this system created by man, and to make things worse, by the Masonic group since our tok jokong days. I believed that my path was already on the right track, only to know I was going the other direction; to hell. I want to get out of this system. I want to clear all the shit I'm going through and live the right way.

Unfortunately, I can only do it myself, and I can't bring my family and friends along, because I am unqualified and the idea is outdated.

Though....!! (background music semangat) I won't give up. Biarlah orang nak kutuk aku ni tak layak ke, tak cermin diri ke apa... I am standing up for a good cause, and I believe Allah will give me the strength to be a better person. If not physically, at least internally...

So forgive me everybody if I ever made myself unclear of my intentions. I just wanted us to go the right way. Probably I sounded cocky. Well, I was never qualified in the first place. Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih. In other words, take what you can, leave the crap behind. That's what I always try to do.

Let's walk on the right path. Forget what I said. Let's study this thing on our own. And if anybody would love to share their findings, I am opened to learn more.