personal satisfaction

I just can't wait to get home and soak myself in my tub, with bubbles of aroma therapy essence. Believe me I'm addicted to it. That would be my only ultimate personal satisfaction for now as nothing could satisfy my inner needs, in other words unable to obtain it... Better than chocolate, better than cigarette, better than coffee, better than movies, better than anything else in the whole wide world. My solitary self, pampering myself while listening to DMB playing on my SE Walkman.. priceless. Fuck the world, I want to be in my tub and not think of anything.

Sigh... I sound like I need help.