Steady, My Heart

يَا مُقَلِّبَ الْقُلُوبِ ثَبِّتْ قَلْبِي عَلَى دِينِكَ

Dive

Expectation: Water
Reality: Empty

Head first. So dumb.

Nouman Ali Khan

Happiness and contentment are two fundamentally different things. Happiness is moments. It never stays. It can’t stay. Contentment is a state of being. And if a person can reach that state of being. Then there are more moments of happiness. And the hard moments become easier to navigate. God says you can get contentment by remembering Him. But the truth is from what I can understand contentment doesn’t erase sadness.It simply makes it manageable. Nothing can erase sadness from life. It is part of what must be experienced here. But it cannot color our life. Make an effort to remember Allah. Make an effort to gain contentment. May Allah make it easy.

Amin.  So beautifully accurate.

My Sought-After

And the Hereafter is better for you than the first [life].

(Surah Ad-Dhuha 93:4)

Love is totally crazy

No one would believe how much you love someone until they go through it themselves.

Don't need to prove it, it's a sentimental load you carry it yourself.

May Allah guard my heart always.

Drop it like it's hot

Why am I so upset? This is what I wanted.

I thank Allah for listening and I am waiting for better things to come.  It is unfolding very quickly.

One thing at a time. 

Victory aside

So funny how the satisfaction of devouring on other's surrendering doesn't trigger any empathy. 

I am not involved with the accountancy of that conspiracy. 

What do you WANT?

You want everything in life.

But what you really need is God's Forgiveness...

May Allah guide us all.

What To Give For Teacher's Day?

Teachers are the second layers for the next generation.  The first layer should of course be the parents. 

Just as much as we have to respect our parents, teachers need to be honoured too.  So we pick one day to celebrate the Teachers.  And usually this is the day children will be giving gifts to their favourite teachers.

But what do you give?

Enough with the mugs and Tupperwares, I'm sure they have tons of them.

So I had a tip from a teacher and she really appreciates gifts that are consumable.  Such as sandwiches, fried chicken, cakes, cookies, chocolates and fruits.  I think that's a great treat for them. 

So, go on, bake your favourite butter cake.  Share them with your kid's teacher.  Who knows you'll even start your very own business from there onwards.

Happy Teachers' Day!

Berniaga Produk di Bulan Ramadhan

Tapak Niaga RM6k..

Dulu-dulu macam releven la nak ketuk sampai ribu-ribu, sbb buying power ok lagi 5-10 tahun lepas.

Nak nasihat sikit la pada yang tak pernah berniaga buka kemah, dari online nak lompat ke tapak, dari jual suka-suka nak berpeluh-peluh melayan customer... dengan RM6k modal tapak aje (ingat ye ni kira bagi free-free terus RM6k dah babaiii dulu sebelum pasang mentol kat tapak, citer pasal mentol, mentol sebiji dalam RM50 untuk jenis kemah niaga tu, belum besi ranting, canvas, dan apa2 la hiasan nak tambah kasi menarik tapak kita.. mesti over bajetnye)

Roughly modal kena keluarkan selalunya berganda 3 ke atas.  And untung u kena dapat haruslah 2-3 kali ganda harga modal barang.  so kalau modal niaga u RM10k, forget it beb.  Baik u simpan RM10k tu, and enjoy your raya with modesty.

Kita selalu dengar niaga puasa nnt dpt income RM30k, 100k.. boleh beb percayalah memang boleh... kalau kau dah mmg otai and kakak/abang kawasan.  Dorang ni respek tabik pada dorang, lama bertahan, kental berjuang.. tapi peritnya Tuhan je yg tahu dari bawah dorang merangkak.  Modal untuk puasa jgn ckp berkepuk-kepuk dorang kuarkan.  Strategy niaga dah tulis kat buku.  Target nak jual berapa, nak upah orang harga berapa, nak top up ke tak bila dah separuh jalan puasa tu, ehhh big volume kena la prepare kan... macam nak masuk perang.

Itu kalau meletop salenye.. kalau krik krik?

Krik krik la sampai 5 tahun akan datang memikirkan camne nak bayar hutang (kalau berhutang), apa nak buat dengan stok lebihan, dan mengungkit la cerita sad story sewaktu berniaga bulan puasa selama forever and ever and everever...

Kepada yang dah bayar tapak, I doakan memang meletop la salenye.. yang masih memikirkan nak ambil tapak tu, carilah mentor sebelum tersalah langkah.

Nota: Personal view for niaga barangan bukan makanan dan minuman.

Happy Anniversary

The past was too beautiful
And too painful
To look back
I'd live it over and over again
I know that I can never be so much in love
Like how I loved you
13 years past
And what we had slowly fading
The joy and the pain
12 years of matrimony
I'd pick every grain
If only I could relive
That moment again
Deep down in my heart there's a hard rock sunken
That anchors all my feelings
Hardly expressing
Because time has taken away my past
Only left for us to see forward
Grasping the darkness looking for that path
That leads us back as one
And in the darkness I seek the light
That reflects the past and future
The hope and relief
And through it I wish to see you
Once again and again and again
That again that never ends
And I will see your face
What time has almost erased
I will feel you
I will live in your heart
Lasting longer than eternity
Because that is the only place I wish to be

Happy Anniversary b-Fyzal

Goodbye Copywriting

I've always wanted to be a copywriter. In the past few years I became one.  And now I realised I hate being a copywriter.

The fact that people don't know how difficult it is to create even a sentence that is attractive, catchy and interesting.  Probably some copywriters have that ability to just flow it out. I finally found out I am not that creative.

The second fact is, like any artist, copywriters demand payment.  It's not something that is done just for free.  Copywriters need to sit down and think and plan out what to write.  We are the same as musicians, painters, carpenters, programmers and whatever else there is.  In my country, paying for art is stupid.  Musicians are thought to be playing for free.  Designers can design in two minutes.  What a load of bull crap.

That is why I am quitting this copywriting job.  When it works it's because of their product.  When it fails, it's because the copywriting is not powerful enough.  With the money they pay us they expect 100 times in return. 

So goodbye to copywriting.  I'll just stick to professional selling.

It's been long overdue

It's almost the end of 2018. I am coming back here.  Wait up.  Insyaallah.

Testing Blogger app.. sigh.. so much changes to the world since I abandoned this blog of mine.

Well, compiling 2019 resolution and this will be one of them.  Cya all soon!

Comic for today: End of TV misery.

Humairah - 9yo

Ihsan - 7 yo

Ali - 3 yo

Ilyas - 1yo

Sarah Mclachlan - Adia

Mr Big - Wild World

La. ..la .. .la ... la. ..la
Now that I' ve lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it 's breaking my heart you' re leaving
Baby I'm grieving
And if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
A lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh baby , baby , it 's a wild world
It' s hard to get by just upon a smile
(yeah .. .) oh baby, it 's a wild world
I' ll always remember you like a child girl

You know I've seen a lot of
What the world can do
And it' s breaking my heart in two
Coz I never want to see you sad girl
Don' t be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there's
A lot of bad and beware
La. .. la.. .la .. .la. .. la. ..baby I love you.

Beautiful Ones

My users always ask me how I could cope with their bosses' bad moods, tantrums, funny requests, emotions, menopause, (hehe) etc. They say I'm calm and collected. They say I have high tolerance and patience.

In fact I do if I'm allowed to boast myself. It's because I see the person in a different angle. I try to allow myself to understand the person's possible reason why they act in a certain way. And for these people I quietly label them as 'beautiful people'. Yes they're weird, different, difficult.. aren't they already special to you? They are not normal. That's why I deal with them differently. My client (the beautiful one), loves me so much she even set dates to see me, twice a week. And only wants to see me. Not my boss. Not my colleague. Her staffs says she seldom have favourites. I'm not talking big here, but yeah who cares what people think. I am proud to know I'm one of her favourites.

The world is so much of 'norm people' that we expect others to behave like we do. And if they don't, we criticize and desert them. Labeling them so many names. Oh yeah, like we're so perfect? Stop watching too much tv and get a grip of reality. We are all weird. We each have different personalities. What's important is we must know some respect and some 'adat'. You can be 'special' but if you don't have manners, than you're out of the picture, far from being 'beautiful'.

Beautiful People to me are those difficult to understand types. Their brain works funnily. They can be possessive, control freak, temperamental, judgemental, etc. They also are always conscious that people are watching them all the time. I don't fix these kinds, because they can never be fixed. They are just like that. So yeah, maybe it was right for 'norm people' to walk out from these 'beautiful ones' because 'norm people' usually don't know how to deal with them.

But hello, I'm not talking about gays or infidels or sorts. This is totally about character. It's different. Don't confuse with personality and faith.

So how do I deal with them? I usually submit and let them be. Gentleness always wins. Listen to them first then you speak. Always try to be on their side. When they accept you, then your ideas may be vital to them. Yup... they're difficult. And they are special. Do no attempt to change them, they may rebel.

I should be working at the psychiatric dept.

But of course I do have my limits. When my patience builds up to a blow, I blow like hell. So I'm not that tolerant either.

It's because I believe I used to be 'beautiful' once. Possessive. Control freak. Temperamental. That is why I understand these kinds more than some.

So smile at them and just let them be. You're no special than them either.


Note: If you're dealing with abusive types, then it's not your job to deal with them. Report immediately. Help them and yourselves. Mental abuse also can be reported and brought to court (for Muslim wives) just in case you don't know. Happy Friday people! :)


The video clip above is not related in any way to this blog. Just the title. Hehehe...

Album Review: Projekt AK 'FUNKdeMENTAL' by meportal.net

Disiarkan Pada 12 Aug 2011 02: 39 Oleh one.barchiel di www.meportal.net

Komuniti underground tempatan pastinya sudah
lama mengenali Projekt A. K. yang ditubuhkan
pada 1995 ini. Mereka sering menyertai gig- gig
Hardcore di seluruh negara pada awal
pembabitan mereka dalam scene . Projekt A. K.
ketika itu merupakan pelopor trend rapcore dan
berbekalkan dua EP iaitu “Against
Kounterplot”(1997 ) dan “Prototyp”( 2002) ,
mereka telah berjaya membina satu reputasi
yang memberangsangkan dalam scene
underground lokal kita.

Seperti band- band lain secara amnya,
pertukaran anggota band adalah sesuatu yang
lumrah. Projekt A. K. telah beberapa kali
mengalami masalah sedemikian, namun dengan
semangat yang kuat mereka meneruskan
penglibatan mereka dan mencari idea- idea
baru. Transformasi yang paling ketara pastinya
arah muzikal mereka yang kini lebih kepada
irama funky- rock.

Album “FUNKdeMENTAL” ini amat ketara
elemen funky dan groove- nya. Muzik
sedemikian jarang diterokai oleh band- band
tempatan. Album ini jelas menampakkan
bahawasanya Projekt A. K. memainkan muzik
yang lahir dari hati mereka sendiri dan bukan
untuk pasaran semata-mata . Beberapa lagu-
lagu menarik termuat dalam album ini seperti
“Higher” yang turut mempunyai versi lain dalam
bahasa Malaysia iaitu “Inspirasi”, “Confusion ”,
“Tonite”, “Alright” dan “Angel ”. Keseluruhannya
“FUNKdeMENTAL” mampu menjadi duta muzik
funky bagi muzik lokal kita. Lagu- lagu yang
dipersembahkan mempunyai originaliti yang
kukuh dan berjaya mengalih tanggapan umum
bahawa muzik funky adalah seperti Red Hot
Chilli Peppers semata-mata . Funky yang
Projekt A. K. persembahkan ternyata berat dan
banyak diiringi gitar- gitar distortion.

Dua anggota asal Projekt A. K. iaitu Rudy
(vokalis ) dan Fyzal (drums ) masih kekal dalam
band ini sementara Syahmi (gitaris) telah
menganggotai Projekt A. K. sejak 1997 lagi.
Penyertaan Andy Flop Poppy selaku bassist
pada 2006 pula kekal sehingga kini. Line- up ini
dilihat agak mantap dan mampu membawa
Projekt A. K. ke destinasi yang lebih tinggi
dalam arena Rock- Alternatif kita.

Mampukah Projekt A. K. menjadi trendsetter
bagi muzik funky sepertimana mereka menjadi
trendsetter bagi rapcore dahulu? Marilah kita
sama- sama mengharapkan yang terbaik bagi
Projekt A. K. buat masa kini dan akan datang.
Seni mereka sememangnya berada di arah
positif bagi industri muzik tanahair .


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Most fans like myself still do embrace the old rapcore. However we can't keep sticking our minds in the past. We have to move on and explore new things. Bad sign was when I went to an international gig (80s rockstars), our local 80s rockers were still stuck with their glam-rock image, whereas the international acts were already with modern clothing. Get where I'm going? We like to hold on too long of our past. I'm guilty too... chow!

Potluck Buka Puasa aka Pre-Raya

To set up the Raya mood with my friends, we decided to have potluck buka puasa at our house last weekend. It's been a long time since we had any gathering at our crib. As quiet as my hubby can get, he actually loves crowd at home. The right kinda crowd that is.

Kinda sad Fara, Skin and Elly couldn't join.

I hope to do more gatherings before my other kid pops out soon. Then it'll be another year nursing. And then I'm gonna force my neighbour buddies to host parties... hehehe...

My new specialty; roasted chicken and vegies. Ready to take orders too.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, EVERYONE! MAAF ZAHIR BATIN...

P/s: waiting for pics from Deb and Ginger...

Redha

I know Allah loves me and He is listening... *cries*

Proposal to the Government

Women may have the rights to apply half day jobs. Tak kisah la gaji pun half ke apa. How wonderful that'll be...

Points to ponder :
1. Mommy can spend time with kids
2. More job opportunities, I take half day, you take half day
3. No issues brought up like women power shit, you still get your job

Amacam? Ok tak? Next election aku nak bertanding la. Hahaha...