Humairah @ 2 months

Here are the latest pictures of my baby Humairah. Enjoy!







Oh, Humairah... I tear up everytime I look at you. You are so beautiful...
Hubby bee, she looks so much like you...

Picture Credits to Deb the Gorgeous and Biqque the Pervert!

"Momma, I wanna be a ROCKSTAR!"

Yesterday I received a call from an old friend asking if I would be interested in joining his band as a frontperson (vocalist) for the Battle of the Bands... I said thanks but no thanks.

I would have said yes, just for the fun of it! hahaha... but I have commitments now. Anyway, I can't even get my band to hold on together, or even get back together. I must say one of my fantasies is to be a rockstar! Tell me who doesn't want to have a taste of it? I'm not a great singer though, but I love the craziness! Creating songs, practicing, recordings, late nights, no sleep, wasting time and most of all the shows! Not to mention dressing up for a reason! hahaha.. Yea, I love working hard for nothing.

I once had my hopes up high with Garaa Band, but then it just got flushed down the toilet, like any other amateur bands. It must have been the most devastating thing that could ever happen to me. Worse than breaking up with a boyfriend (yea I'm over-reacting). We were on the right track. We even had an EP! We sold out all of them! (Excuse me, it wasn't even 100 copies.. hahahaha). I had numerous calls for shows that I had to lie to them saying the boys were out of town. What a liar. I was hoping the breakup was temporary, but it wasn't. Sigh.. God always does this to me. The adrenaline always lasts such short time. In every case of my life! Damn it.

And so I told my friend, I have a kid now and I bet my hubby won't allow it. I told him I was flattered that he asked me, at least I'm still a rockstar to some people. hehehe.. well, at least all my efforts left some markings somewhere or to someone out there.





Give me hope.. and take it all away. It has always been that way. RIP.

I just don't get it

APSAL KO TAKDE COMMON SENSE ARRR??????

RUDE! JUST PLAIN RUDE!! BENCI LA!

I must have been a bad girl...

I guess God knows I am such a spoilt kid, he punishes me in a mild way.

I have eczema, not only on my hands.
I have a problem with my hip bone, or rather the whole of my lower body.
I have a painful bunion.
I don't have enough milk supply for my baby.

It may sound like nothing to some, but it does shatter my self-esteem. In a way feeling like a failure.

So if someone thinks I'm lavished in comfort, internally I suffer enough. If not physically, at least mentally. And if you know me, I'm easily depressed.

I can fake a pretty smile though. HAVE A GREAT DAY PEOPLE!! :D


IKLAN:
Tune in this Sunday 29th March 2009 4pm-5pm for Projekt AK's brand new entry single 'HIGHER' and an exclusive interview @ hitz.fm Malaysian English Top 10 with Uno & Moots of Pop Shuvit!

Projekt AK -- Latest Single-- !!

Ok, so Pineaplle must have heard people shouting... they've added KORN and Erykah ya? Still not going.. hehehe...

By the way, if you haven't heard already, Projekt AK has released its latest single Higher and Inspirasi. Their full 10-songs album will be out soon. Check them out at:

Projekt AK @ facebook.com
http://amp.channelv.com/projektak
http://www.myspace/projektak

I heard that they're already on air. I'm still checking out which station. Most probably Capital 88.9fm. Probably others too, I'm not too sure.

It's practically the same song, but in two different languages; Malay and English. Nope, it's not the direct translation if you don't understand Malay. Why two languages? Well you see, to capture the local market there's no other way other than singing in its mother tongue. How sad can that be, but that's the reality. I don't know whether it is the question of ego in us where we simply just don't want to accept local artiste singing in English or we have many locals who just can't understand English! Either way, if you can't beat 'em, join 'em.. yup, create one Malay single.

Projekt AK is bringing out the funk in every one. I'm sure there are some other funk bands out there under the blanket or something but honestly Projekt AK can fulfill my inner crave in listening to music. I believe when you are in a band, each and every band member should play an important role in realising the music. That's what I can get from them. Take one out and you don't have a band. You get what I mean? Maksud aku, tiap orang tu kena ada talent la nak main betol2!!! Bukan setakat jengjengjeng je... camtu aku pun bleh main.

So go on and listen to our local act! I read in one of the comments from some other blog that we should stop idolising international acts so much. She's right... and wrong. We do have talents here too.. but then again, what's wrong with idolising others when they're really good? Timba ilmu sampai ke negara China.. heard that saying before?

Now go!!

Projekt AK @ facebook.com
http://amp.channelv.com/projektak
http://www.myspace/projektak

Sunburst 09 Lineup.. boring...

I love going to concerts, shows and events.. only if it's worth it. Yesterday I surfed and surfed hoping to get a glimpse who are the acts coming down here to for our Sunburst 09 Festival. And finally I got the list. Very dissapointing though...

NERD, the only international act confirmed? Come on... you gotta be kidding me right? Even if Coldplay is coming, I'm still not going to pay RM203 for it. I need more! 311? Jamiroquai? Oh shoot me...

The rest are mostly local acts where I can simply slip into any gig to watch them for free. I don't even have to pay RM140 pre-sale price to watch them. Shoot me again, please. Pineapple, you're really scraping our pockets.

Here are the list:
NERD (notice the big bold font on the flyers, hahaha.. I don't know why I find it funny), Butterfingers, Nidji, Andra & The Backbone, Meet Uncle Hussain, Estranged, Hujan, Agrikulture, Bunkface, Maliq & D'Essential, Gerhana Ska Cinta, Estrella, Dead Mushroom, Joe Flizzow, Projek Pistol, Sixx, 21st Night, They Will Kill Us All, Pesawat, The Otherside Orchestra, Russian Winters, APU, Juwita Suwito, Reza Salleh, Twilight Actiongirl, Loops Collective, etc.

If I do get free tickets, only then I'm going, for the fun of it that is.. hehe..

Have fun people!

My Baby Humairah

I want to fly away with you, Baby Humairah...

Yeap, I'm a mom now. She was born on the 17 January 2009 at 4.59am. She was 3.49kg and 50cm long. They say I'm a supermom to give birth to such a healthy kid! God knows what I went through. Makes me think of my mom... oh dear... I broke my mom's heart many times. I wish I could take it all back. No matter how wrong she is, she is my mother. I'm gonna call her later...

Baby Humairah, I wanna run away with you to pinkyland...

What goes around comes around.

I'm so afraid my baby will hurt me one day, like I always hurt my mother... If she does break my heart, serves me right. I am always not there when my mom needs me, when she's being attacked either by myself or others. I should have known better how to solve things with her... Unfortunately, I don't know how. We always have this commucation break down. But in the end, I will surrender and give in to her. I love my mother no matter what. The whole world can say what they wanna say, but they can't change the fact that she's my mother. The rest of the world can fuck off.

Baby Humairah, make me happy. With just a smile you make me cry with joy...

And my dad... I'd do anything for him. I'd die protecting him, coz I know he has a heart made of gold. Others may not get him, but I do. He's the only one that understands me. The rest of the world... can fuck off.

Baby Humairah, love your parents... because I'd want my daughter to love her parents until she dies...