Sunburst 09 Lineup.. boring...

I love going to concerts, shows and events.. only if it's worth it. Yesterday I surfed and surfed hoping to get a glimpse who are the acts coming down here to for our Sunburst 09 Festival. And finally I got the list. Very dissapointing though...

NERD, the only international act confirmed? Come on... you gotta be kidding me right? Even if Coldplay is coming, I'm still not going to pay RM203 for it. I need more! 311? Jamiroquai? Oh shoot me...

The rest are mostly local acts where I can simply slip into any gig to watch them for free. I don't even have to pay RM140 pre-sale price to watch them. Shoot me again, please. Pineapple, you're really scraping our pockets.

Here are the list:
NERD (notice the big bold font on the flyers, hahaha.. I don't know why I find it funny), Butterfingers, Nidji, Andra & The Backbone, Meet Uncle Hussain, Estranged, Hujan, Agrikulture, Bunkface, Maliq & D'Essential, Gerhana Ska Cinta, Estrella, Dead Mushroom, Joe Flizzow, Projek Pistol, Sixx, 21st Night, They Will Kill Us All, Pesawat, The Otherside Orchestra, Russian Winters, APU, Juwita Suwito, Reza Salleh, Twilight Actiongirl, Loops Collective, etc.

If I do get free tickets, only then I'm going, for the fun of it that is.. hehe..

Have fun people!

My Baby Humairah

I want to fly away with you, Baby Humairah...

Yeap, I'm a mom now. She was born on the 17 January 2009 at 4.59am. She was 3.49kg and 50cm long. They say I'm a supermom to give birth to such a healthy kid! God knows what I went through. Makes me think of my mom... oh dear... I broke my mom's heart many times. I wish I could take it all back. No matter how wrong she is, she is my mother. I'm gonna call her later...

Baby Humairah, I wanna run away with you to pinkyland...

What goes around comes around.

I'm so afraid my baby will hurt me one day, like I always hurt my mother... If she does break my heart, serves me right. I am always not there when my mom needs me, when she's being attacked either by myself or others. I should have known better how to solve things with her... Unfortunately, I don't know how. We always have this commucation break down. But in the end, I will surrender and give in to her. I love my mother no matter what. The whole world can say what they wanna say, but they can't change the fact that she's my mother. The rest of the world can fuck off.

Baby Humairah, make me happy. With just a smile you make me cry with joy...

And my dad... I'd do anything for him. I'd die protecting him, coz I know he has a heart made of gold. Others may not get him, but I do. He's the only one that understands me. The rest of the world... can fuck off.

Baby Humairah, love your parents... because I'd want my daughter to love her parents until she dies...

Happy Birthday Bee..

Today is my husband's birthday.

I've only personally known him for less than 3 years, and how delightful I am to know him and to be married to him. God has His ways to fulfill our wishes, He really took His time. My hubby is everything I had wish for. Loving, caring, funny, talented, smart, clingy, loyal, truthful... InsyaAllah he is everything I wished for...

In return, I have been at my best for him. Always by his side. I give in all the time. I make sure I give him enough love everyday and I try my best to make the house as homey as possible. And now when I'm pregnant, he has done the same for me and I appreciate it.

How I wish I could give more to you, dearie. We are not the rich people to pour with lavish gifts and expensive dinners and getaways. I believe our love is priceless and we appreciate the time we have together, and that's what I'll give to you. My love and devotion. Because for me, spending time with you is the most precious gift I can ever have. We joke, we talk, we gossip... I love that every moment! I hope you feel the same way too...

But, of course, I'm the type who spoils her mate. I'm getting you your long-waited gift, and I'm taking you out for a lovely dinner. It may not cost much, but I hope you will have a great birthday just by being with your wife and your unborn child.

Happy birthday, Bee... May your life is filled with love, joy and happiness... amin...

personal satisfaction

I just can't wait to get home and soak myself in my tub, with bubbles of aroma therapy essence. Believe me I'm addicted to it. That would be my only ultimate personal satisfaction for now as nothing could satisfy my inner needs, in other words unable to obtain it... Better than chocolate, better than cigarette, better than coffee, better than movies, better than anything else in the whole wide world. My solitary self, pampering myself while listening to DMB playing on my SE Walkman.. priceless. Fuck the world, I want to be in my tub and not think of anything.

Sigh... I sound like I need help.

1 out of 10

I just realized someone has rated me 1 out of 10. Heh.. Thank you for even coming into this blog. For your information, I don't give a shiznit about that rating. For all I know, I appreciate the tendency for even giving this lame blog 1/10. I would have rated myself 0/10. Guess I'm not so bad after all.. yihhaa!

visit these instead:

my favourite indie band
> Projekt AK
my friend's blog
> Beauty in Darkness
> Mrs. Papi
artsy
> devianART

Fall of Dark

From the start
She knew she had it made
Easy up 'til then
For sure she'd make the grade
Adorers came in hordes
To lay down in her wake
Gave it all she had
But treasures slowly fade
Now she's falling hard
Feels the fall of dark
How did this fall apart?
She drinks to fill it up
A smile of sweetest flowers
Wilted so and soured
Black tears stain the cheeks
That once were so admired
She thinks when she was small
There on her father's knee
How he had promised her,
"You'll always be my baby."
"Daddy come quick,
The dreaming tree has died
I can't find my way home
There is no place to hide
The dreaming tree has died."

propose the world has to offer

and then chuck it into the drain...

thanks for wasting my time.