dibitz wants to fly!

Sarah Mclachlan - Adia

2011-09-28T03:32:00.001+08:00

Mr Big - Wild World

2011-09-27T01:44:00.001+08:00

La. ..la .. .la ... la. ..la
Now that I' ve lost everything to you
You say you want to start something new
And it 's breaking my heart you' re leaving
Baby I'm grieving
And if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
A lot of nice things turn bad out there

Oh baby , baby , it 's a wild world
It' s hard to get by just upon a smile
(yeah .. .) oh baby, it 's a wild world
I' ll always remember you like a child girl

You know I've seen a lot of
What the world can do
And it' s breaking my heart in two
Coz I never want to see you sad girl
Don' t be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave take good care
Hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
Just remember there's
A lot of bad and beware
La. .. la.. .la .. .la. .. la. ..baby I love you.

Beautiful Ones

2011-09-23T12:31:00.002+08:00

My users always ask me how I could cope with their bosses' bad moods, tantrums, funny requests, emotions, menopause, (hehe) etc. They say I'm calm and collected. They say I have high tolerance and patience.

In fact I do if I'm allowed to boast myself. It's because I see the person in a different angle. I try to allow myself to understand the person's possible reason why they act in a certain way. And for these people I quietly label them as 'beautiful people'. Yes they're weird, different, difficult.. aren't they already special to you? They are not normal. That's why I deal with them differently. My client (the beautiful one), loves me so much she even set dates to see me, twice a week. And only wants to see me. Not my boss. Not my colleague. Her staffs says she seldom have favourites. I'm not talking big here, but yeah who cares what people think. I am proud to know I'm one of her favourites.

The world is so much of 'norm people' that we expect others to behave like we do. And if they don't, we criticize and desert them. Labeling them so many names. Oh yeah, like we're so perfect? Stop watching too much tv and get a grip of reality. We are all weird. We each have different personalities. What's important is we must know some respect and some 'adat'. You can be 'special' but if you don't have manners, than you're out of the picture, far from being 'beautiful'.

Beautiful People to me are those difficult to understand types. Their brain works funnily. They can be possessive, control freak, temperamental, judgemental, etc. They also are always conscious that people are watching them all the time. I don't fix these kinds, because they can never be fixed. They are just like that. So yeah, maybe it was right for 'norm people' to walk out from these 'beautiful ones' because 'norm people' usually don't know how to deal with them.

But hello, I'm not talking about gays or infidels or sorts. This is totally about character. It's different. Don't confuse with personality and faith.

So how do I deal with them? I usually submit and let them be. Gentleness always wins. Listen to them first then you speak. Always try to be on their side. When they accept you, then your ideas may be vital to them. Yup... they're difficult. And they are special. Do no attempt to change them, they may rebel.

I should be working at the psychiatric dept.

But of course I do have my limits. When my patience builds up to a blow, I blow like hell. So I'm not that tolerant either.

It's because I believe I used to be 'beautiful' once. Possessive. Control freak. Temperamental. That is why I understand these kinds more than some.

So smile at them and just let them be. You're no special than them either.

Note: If you're dealing with abusive types, then it's not your job to deal with them. Report immediately. Help them and yourselves. Mental abuse also can be reported and brought to court (for Muslim wives) just in case you don't know. Happy Friday people! :)

The video clip above is not related in any way to this blog. Just the title. Hehehe...

Album Review: Projekt AK 'FUNKdeMENTAL' by meportal.net

2011-09-13T18:03:00.006+08:00

Disiarkan Pada 12 Aug 2011 02: 39 Oleh one.barchiel di www.meportal.net

Komuniti underground tempatan pastinya sudah
lama mengenali Projekt A. K. yang ditubuhkan
pada 1995 ini. Mereka sering menyertai gig- gig
Hardcore di seluruh negara pada awal
pembabitan mereka dalam scene . Projekt A. K.
ketika itu merupakan pelopor trend rapcore dan
berbekalkan dua EP iaitu “Against
Kounterplot”(1997 ) dan “Prototyp”( 2002) ,
mereka telah berjaya membina satu reputasi
yang memberangsangkan dalam scene
underground lokal kita.

Seperti band- band lain secara amnya,
pertukaran anggota band adalah sesuatu yang
lumrah. Projekt A. K. telah beberapa kali
mengalami masalah sedemikian, namun dengan
semangat yang kuat mereka meneruskan
penglibatan mereka dan mencari idea- idea
baru. Transformasi yang paling ketara pastinya
arah muzikal mereka yang kini lebih kepada
irama funky- rock.

Album “FUNKdeMENTAL” ini amat ketara
elemen funky dan groove- nya. Muzik
sedemikian jarang diterokai oleh band- band
tempatan. Album ini jelas menampakkan
bahawasanya Projekt A. K. memainkan muzik
yang lahir dari hati mereka sendiri dan bukan
untuk pasaran semata-mata . Beberapa lagu-
lagu menarik termuat dalam album ini seperti
“Higher” yang turut mempunyai versi lain dalam
bahasa Malaysia iaitu “Inspirasi”, “Confusion ”,
“Tonite”, “Alright” dan “Angel ”. Keseluruhannya
“FUNKdeMENTAL” mampu menjadi duta muzik
funky bagi muzik lokal kita. Lagu- lagu yang
dipersembahkan mempunyai originaliti yang
kukuh dan berjaya mengalih tanggapan umum
bahawa muzik funky adalah seperti Red Hot
Chilli Peppers semata-mata . Funky yang
Projekt A. K. persembahkan ternyata berat dan
banyak diiringi gitar- gitar distortion.

Dua anggota asal Projekt A. K. iaitu Rudy
(vokalis ) dan Fyzal (drums ) masih kekal dalam
band ini sementara Syahmi (gitaris) telah
menganggotai Projekt A. K. sejak 1997 lagi.
Penyertaan Andy Flop Poppy selaku bassist
pada 2006 pula kekal sehingga kini. Line- up ini
dilihat agak mantap dan mampu membawa
Projekt A. K. ke destinasi yang lebih tinggi
dalam arena Rock- Alternatif kita.

Mampukah Projekt A. K. menjadi trendsetter
bagi muzik funky sepertimana mereka menjadi
trendsetter bagi rapcore dahulu? Marilah kita
sama- sama mengharapkan yang terbaik bagi
Projekt A. K. buat masa kini dan akan datang.
Seni mereka sememangnya berada di arah
positif bagi industri muzik tanahair .

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Most fans like myself still do embrace the old rapcore. However we can't keep sticking our minds in the past. We have to move on and explore new things. Bad sign was when I went to an international gig (80s rockstars), our local 80s rockers were still stuck with their glam-rock image, whereas the international acts were already with modern clothing. Get where I'm going? We like to hold on too long of our past. I'm guilty too... chow!

Potluck Buka Puasa aka Pre-Raya

2011-08-22T22:31:00.001+08:00

To set up the Raya mood with my friends, we decided to have potluck buka puasa at our house last weekend. It's been a long time since we had any gathering at our crib. As quiet as my hubby can get, he actually loves crowd at home. The right kinda crowd that is.

Kinda sad Fara, Skin and Elly couldn't join.

I hope to do more gatherings before my other kid pops out soon. Then it'll be another year nursing. And then I'm gonna force my neighbour buddies to host parties... hehehe...

My new specialty; roasted chicken and vegies. Ready to take orders too.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, EVERYONE! MAAF ZAHIR BATIN...

P/s: waiting for pics from Deb and Ginger...

Redha

2011-07-07T22:46:00.001+08:00

I know Allah loves me and He is listening... *cries*

Proposal to the Government

2011-06-30T15:48:00.001+08:00

Women may have the rights to apply half day jobs. Tak kisah la gaji pun half ke apa. How wonderful that'll be...

Points to ponder :
1. Mommy can spend time with kids
2. More job opportunities, I take half day, you take half day
3. No issues brought up like women power shit, you still get your job

Amacam? Ok tak? Next election aku nak bertanding la. Hahaha...

In Solitary

2011-06-20T15:52:00.001+08:00

Ada satu pakcik ni, orang surau agaknya, buka bisnes makan dekat rumah kitorang. Satu hari tu try la makan kat sana. Dah duduk makan dia pun datang ajak borak. Of course hubby was with me la. We chatted and joke, obviously his topic would be religion la. One thing he mentioned that I will always remember. He said this world is about us mankind. We're here not to just pray. Tugas solat tu semua dah memang tanggungjawab masing². If we lock ourselves and just pray and pray won't promise us heaven. We are created to live in society. Bukan bersosial minum teh tarik je. But meet up, do charity work, discuss about religion, remind ourselves about Allah, helping the poor, etc. Basically the social networking goes around religious matters. That's why days before our time the mosques and surau always are meeting points. Not like nowadays, you can only see a full mosque during Friday prayers or religious occasions.

We don't have to go that far to notice our differences. We find friends hard to accept religious subjects from their own family and friends. Why is that? Are we all so modernized and think that religion is something unimportant? Well to be honest it took me awhile to open myself to strangers when they start to talk about something religious. I thought that person might be cocky or showing off his knowledge or worst thinking that person is talking down on me. Tapi lama² aku pikir ye la memang aku ni cetek pengetahuan. Apa salahnya dengar. Kalau tak percaya balik nanti aku kaji la balik. I won't take word for word what the person says, but it surely could add to my list of Google search items. Plus I like to talk, so what?

Because when we tend to learn more and more you'll find it more confident when facing people of other religion. Dulu bila orang ajak masuk Christianity aku tak tau macamana nak tepis. Dok hehehe patu senyap. They will ask many questions why this why that. You being a Muslim can feel scared to answer some simple questions, takut salah jawab. Memandai nak jawab takut dosa, takut termurtad ke.

But somehow living in this modern life, it is more difficult to socialize than i thought. Networking is nothing more than gossips, unresolved problems and money money money,worldy matters. Go beyond that you lose your entourage. Encourages people to live in solitary and keep their knowledge to themselves. And here we continue being ignorant people... what a disaster this world is.

May Allah help me with myself.

Nordin Ahmad & Latifah Omar - Gurindam Jiwa

2011-06-10T12:54:00.001+08:00

Silverchair - Without You

2011-06-07T14:34:00.002+08:00

Keane - Bedshaped

2011-05-18T16:38:00.005+08:00

Happy Anniversary!

2011-05-06T02:01:00.001+08:00

I remember the first time I saw you, you were with someone else and so was I. But it was that time I told myself not to look at you again. The sudden blush came over me and envy took place thinking what a lucky girl she was. And I never looked at you again even though we hung out with the same group. Even though I did say I would talk to you when we meet but I tried my best to avoid you.

I remember we exchanged numbers but I don't remember what for because all I plan was to avoid you. You messaged me a few times asking how I was but I made sure I sounded platonic. I guess at one point you thought I was snobbish you might have deleted my ym ID. Apparently you appeared again.

Years after years, heartaches after heartaches we finally get to talk in a much more friendlier mode, through ym of course. Though we met up in groups I still couldn't look at you, until one day I did and I just couldn't forget you.

Few days after you expressed your feelings for a girl and I just felt it was me. True enough we ended up dating.

A year past and we got married...

I'm still happily in love with you and today marks our 4th wedding anniversary.

It's only been 5 years since we're together but I believe the rest of my life will bring more loving and happy moments with our growing family.

Happy anniversary dear. You are truly my soulmate... love you...

Men Can Be Better Bitches

2011-04-19T13:17:00.005+08:00

Selama aku hidup ni (I'm still 17 btw) aku sedar bahawa aku makin menyampah dengan lelaki. Aku bukan lesbian. Aku bukannya tak kahwin lagi. Aku sayang suami aku, bapak aku, adik laki aku.. tapi aku rasa aku makin benci kat lelaki secara umumnya la.

It's true women are bitches but men make better bitches than women. I'm no psychologist or anything, but through the years I think I learn to appreciate my girlfriends more. So they gossip a lot. So they like to compete. So they're forgetful. Sometimes we behave like jakuns. But they can never stab me in the back like men do.

Men tend to ruin friendship and relationship in the name of $$. Believe me I've seen many like them. I'm talking about men to men friendship here. Not men and women friendship. Like your dad's friend, husband's friend, boyfriend's friend, etc. Hari ni, dia kawan rapat kau macam kawan dibawa ke mati punya kawan. Lepak bersama. Cerita masalah peribadi dia. Siap di kala kesusahan pinjam duit kau. Tumpang kereta tanpa kongsi duit minyak atau tol. Kawan rapat sampai nak bukak bisnes sama-sama. Cerita masa depan sama-sama. Dah macam bestfriend dah. Kalau perempuan tu dah kategori kawan sampai mati. BFF y'all.

Tapi, bila dah senang, nampak peluang lagi bagus tempat lain, poof dia hilang tinggalkan BFF dia tu terkontang kanting gantung tak bertali, bisnes ke mana, hutang budi ke mana. Ada yang lagi pandai, bisnes sama-sama tapi duit masuk poket dia je. Songlap.

Setakat ni aku rasa kawan-kawan perempuan aku takde la songlap duit sampai tahap boleh putus kawan. Kalau setakat bayar kurang masa makan ramai-ramai tu takde hal lah. Close one eye only.

But no, men are willing to lose their friendships for money... or fame or out of selfishness, worse. Some funny fact that some men are willing to forgive as time goes by. Hello, if I were in their shoes, if I weren't a Muslim, I might have murdered them he-bitches! hahaha... Well, not all la, some men can never forgive until they die.

Con men, back stabbers, robbers, liars... are mostly men. We have real bitches too who are women. But in my point of view, men make better bitches. In numbers and in occupation. Just go phuck, piss, and go.

Bye-bye suckers. May you live long enough to pray for death to come.

Note: This is through personal experiences... wait another 5 years my views might change.

Bunga Larangan - UG14

2011-04-05T11:03:00.002+08:00

Heiii... sesiapa yang ada video "LIVE" UG14-Bunga Larangan tolong laaaa bagi aku tengok. Penat aku carik.

To me this song is just so perfect, like listening to Steelheart-She's Gone or Loudness-So Lonely... but malay version. Of course we have many others like Wings, Search, MAY, BPR, etc. and we should be proud we once had great bands and great music.

But Bunga Larangan, when you listen to it after a long while, it really gives you the shiver inside. The lyrics, melody, music, keyboard/strings, guitar solo, the drum oh my god double stroke bass drum at the chorus, shit man.. so simple yet so brilliant. :D

Of course I haven't made any research who, what, where, when, why this song was composed, but I'd like to thank whoever was involved in the making of this song for adding to my list of favourite songs. (wow am I full of emotion this morning)

I love the Rock era! Yeahhh...!!

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2011-03-29T16:44:00.001+08:00

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When I Go, Will You Come With Me?

2011-02-28T14:32:00.002+08:00

My friend's cousin just passed away, 47 years old, died of heart attack, 5 months after her husband passed away... Innalillah.

I always hear this kind of news. Wife or husband dies after few months their spouses have left. It must be very heart-aching to be left alone.

One can die of heartbroken.. One can be very lonely when left..

Today is too depressing for me...

The Lowest Bottomest I Can Be

2011-02-28T12:28:00.003+08:00

It's hard if you're a girl, seriously. You're kind, they take advantage. You're mean, they say you're a bitch.

In this world, I find most men to be pigs. Especially the ones who are half-men. They still have a dick so eventually they are considered men. Except more bitchy than women as they claim. I can't understand why the double standard still exists after so much brainwashing the media has given us. Equal rights never did happen in reality.

I have noticed men leaving all the tasks to the women to do, while they go have their cup of coffee. Many times I must say. Their supervisors let them be. But when it is our turn, the girls, we get some lecture.

Men are way more bitches than we women. You fight them, they gang you up. You complain, you get the bad name. You do it in vain, waiting for appreciation... you wish. Forget it, girls. Kau buat rajin macamana pun, takkan ada siapa yang pedulik. You think I may tell you to fight them? Forget it. I'm telling you to chicken out and leave them. They may or may not suffer without you, but at least you don't have to face them anymore. Them he-bitches. They are smart for making use of us. We are dumb to just be kind. Sudah la. Tak berbaloi. Baik duduk rumah jaga anak, pikir Allah. We may feel oppressed here on earth. But the benefits for doing the right thing at the right time, insyaAllah heaven is nearer to us, first. Them he-bitches can cry from hell.

Yup, obviously this post is all about me being depressed. Aku memang anti-lelaki dari kecik. Luckily, I'm not that dumb to label all men that way. Bapak aku lelaki jugak. I am married too, and wish to have a son some day. So, I'm not that all worked up with the idea of anti-men. Though in general, yes, I hate men. I wonder, am I the only one feeling this way? Do other girls get treated this way too? Unrealising they are being used?

I wish we really live the Muslim way. You men just go to work, and leave us all girls at home. You mentally drained people may think this is unfair. I think it's way more fair. Let the men work their asses off. Kerja admin pun biar dorang buat. Jual kereta pakai model lelaki tak boleh ke? Receptionist pun lelaki. Waiter pun lelaki sahaja. We girls should be treated as queens. Or Saloma. Not slave ourselves with paperwork and sorts! In this way, there's no such thing as "takde keje" for men. Because we know, we women are better at doing our jobs, yet easier to be bullied, that's why there are more women at work now. Men.. are just manipulative. That's why also they like to play Command and Conquer.

After earning my degree, some certs here and there, I find myself totally useless by the day. Degree tah ke mana. Kerja dah takde kena mengena dengan apa kita belajar dulu. In the first place you didn't even like the subject you studied before. Sekarang, kerja semua nak humban kat kita. Bila buat salah sikit, nak tulis memo kat kita. Nak tukar kerja dah tak tau nak ke mana. You just don't want to be stuck in a rut like now! You switch jobs but still end up in a shit hole, worse than before. It will always be uglier than the previous one. Always.

Some housewives say it's harder staying at home. Trust me, I'd rather stay at home than to be used, humiliated, scrutinized and caged. You slave at home, at least heaven is waiting for you. It's all worth it. Ini, naik gaji pun sikit. Bonus macam biskut. Layanan macam taik. Neraka pun dekat sebab asyik memaki-hamun, mengumpat, dan sebagainya.

So why am I still working? Duit tak cukup. Hutang banyak. Nak shopping. Makan nak sedap. Baju nak berderet. Kasut nak bertingkat. Yeah, complain but no action. That's how it is with us girls. I'm a coward. The Lowest Bottomest Coward I Can Be.

So to those who quit their jobs, you have my utter respect. Tabik hormat.

Thank you world for making me feel disgusted with everything including myself.

*Men in my context are subject to those who treat women like shit. I believe there are many gentlemen and with good home grown behaviour out there. To them, they have my prayers.

Incendiary

2011-02-07T14:22:00.004+08:00

At one look at the youtube below you'd think it's another stupid local wannabe band.

That's when you know nothing.

Battle of the Bands 2011 Final - 2nd Runner Up

Global Battle of the Bands 2010 - Heat

Global Battle of the Bands - Semi Final

These young chaps are excellent! Listening to them makes me wanna listen to metal again! Tabik tabik tabik... apsal la Ijai tak cakap awal-awal. Kalau tak, Kak Dib punya kawan ramai yang gatal tangan dan sukarela nak meng-vote untuk Global Battle Of the Bands aritu. Tapi vote-vote pun dalam fb dapat no 2, apsal kat tv tak dapat masuk final pulak? Adakah ini satu sabotaj?

Anyway, congratulations Incendiary won 2nd Runner Up for Battle of the Bands last weekend 6 February 2011, and almost made it to Global Battle of the Bands Finals.

Ijai is my young brother-in-law. He plays the drums.. pretty well too.

Why Is It Okay To Show Off

2011-02-07T11:12:00.008+08:00

Nowadays, especially, people love to show off. Somehow, people get richer everyday. Designer bags, shoes, make ups, cars, techy stuff.. you name it. Up to their kids' diapers too.

There is a certain amount of acceptance in the community for showing off. But let me tell you why it is okay, in my view. It is okay because in my case we need to look good and feel good. In fact we try not to show people that we are poor or cheap. Our prophet likes nice and pretty things too.

I like seeing people with branded stuff, really. And then I like to see how the person acts. I like to watch OKBs. I like to see them make themselves looks silly sometimes. Jakun la senang cakap. Some OKBs carry on well, some OKBs make 'OKB' sound bad. Some OKBs think their the richest. Some OKBs gets stingy.

OKB tu Orang Kaya Baru la. (New Rich Man)

Anyway, as I was saying, why showing off is okay. So, why is it not? I have new shoes, I'd love to flaunt it. I just bought a new bag, I'd like to match them with my outfit. Imagine everyone wears something nice, it'd be a happy sight. At least for me. It doesn't have to be branded. My shoes and clothes are all from Sg Wang or Berjaya. I don't wear brands, they wear me (konon). Except for watches and wallets and stuff like that (haha konon kan tadi), yeah I do have this weird syndrom that some of my stuff must be branded and genuine, excuse me. Not that I want to show off, but yeah.. I do want to show off. Hahaha.. It makes me feel happy.

The other day I saw this aunty at a mamak, she was in her 50s I guess. She was wearing white blouse, white 3/4 khakis, beige wedged shoes and a beige designer bag. Simple and sweet. More sweet that she's such a soft spoken lady.

If everyone dresses up, this world would be a prettier place. Not better, but prettier hehe...

However, to boast or brag excessively is a total turn off and low-class. You need to show not talk about it. Just show. Take it and go... take it... and go.... if you can afford it, just take it.......... and fucking go.

And please, quit thinking you have money. If you can't buy me this gold fixie, you're just poor like me.

pics stolen

Projekt AK Biography

2011-01-25T16:25:00.004+08:00

courtesy of Projekt AK

Projekt A.K., one of the premier groups formed in late 1995, the original members consisted of Nazri and Rudy on vocals, Knox (of local hardcore pioneers Chronic Mass) on guitar, Zani on bass and Fyzal on drums. The band first made their mark on one of the first local hardcore releases ever, the Visionville Hardcore compilation released in 1996. The band issued the Against Kounterplot E.P. in 1997 to critical aclaim and the E.P did considerably well . Sometimes in '98, Knox left the band to concentrate on his own band, Chronic Mass. The band then added ex-Basic Right, Status103,Groundrule guitarist Amy and ex-Infectious Maggots guitarist P.E. to boost the line-up. Projekt A.K. gigged constantly throughout '98 and '99 but then took a break in 2002 due to the work commitments of various band members.

Blending the imaginative wordplay and rapping of hip-hop music with the stomping and funky rhythms of rock and funk, Projekt A.K.'s music feeds the head as well as the heart, rocking the crowd in the moshpit. The rappers and the musicians in the band constantly push each other to new directions. While Nazri subtly shifts his delivery to adjust to the unpredictability of live instruments, the other band members intensify their musical attack to avoid being drenched by the fury of Nazri's lyrical rainstorm.

Projekt AK have played blistering live sets to crowds from KL to Kuantan to Singapore and back. Hundreds of shows.Among the shows they've taken part in include the seminal Hardcore Matinee back in 1996 at Piccadily, the Kent Fresh Freakout at Sunway Lagoon in 1998 as well organizing and headlining Renegades : The tribute To Rage Against The Machine show and the Big show in Stadium Melawati in Shah Alam where they performed with Koffin Kanser, Blind Tribe, A.C.A.B, Gerhana Ska Cinta and others. The band has also performed with some of the best local hip-hop talent Too Phat, The Tarik Crew, Da Joint and many more.

On the Prototyp E.P. released in February 2002, the band worked with former Malaysia DMC runner-up DJ Ken from the reknown Playaz Universe who provided some fresh beats and scratches to give the songs an even harder edge.

2005 was the year when Projekt AK reunited with original line ups namely Rudy, Nazri, Knox, Zani, Amy, Fyzal... after a long slumber from the underground scene, did an opening with comrades Pop Shuvit @ Hard Rock Café.

In 2006, since Zani the original bassist of Projekt AK is in Langkawi with commitments, Rudy called upon Andy Flop Poppy to join Projekt AK as the bassist. Amy and Fyzal remained as the line up. Nazri, Knox and Piee left for personal matters.

Current members namely (L-R): Faizal, Andy, Rudy and Syami

My review:

This time around, Projekt AK brings you the funk eliminating the rap-core part. Why, you ask? Fans around question this a lot and some of them still want to listen to their original genre; rap-core. Well why not? We've all grown up so much, do we still need to listen to rap-core? (Though I did request them to create something more hardcore on their next album, for the sake of their fans, and me teehee..)

I must say Projekt AK FUNKdeMENTAL is suitable for all, young and old, girls and boys. Fresh new songs with fresh new ideas. You don't need something 'angry' to satisfy your ears and soul, do you. Jangan tipu la, kau pun dengar Jason Mraz kan? I'd pay more attention to the music, ie: drums, bass and guitars. It's not that you can catch talented local musicians all the time. They're out there but unfound. But this band is just right infront of us. Take this chance to appreciate our musicians. If you're a musician, you'd understand what I'm saying. If you're not, then it's time to learn to appreciate real music.

If you listen to FUNKdeMENTAL, I promise you it won't sound 'local'. Not to condemn local singers, but I must say the vocalist sounds really mat-salleh, y'all! Haha.. I'm not surprised if they have international fans, and they do, trust me. I've let some elderly English speaking people listen to the album and they were all surprised to know that it is a local band. I was proud to know that it raised brows.

What Projekt AK can offer, like any other independent band, is that they play as they wish. Own arrangements, self-produced, own masterpiece. There's no producer telling the bassist to slow down on the slaps, or telling the drummer to mute those ghostnotes, or telling the guitarist to go easy on the solos... nope... it's all in there. All in there! And I love it! It's my ultimate 'local band' satisfaction. So do we still need rap-core? Maybe in their next album. This time, give them a chance to prove their ability. You already know they can do what they did best before... :)

p/s: I only just hate the album cover. I asked them about and they said it was not Projekt AK's decision. So, no comment.

To listen to Projekt AK FUNKdeMENTAL, visit their website www.myspace.com/projektak and view their singles "Higher" and "Inspirasi".

If you browse youtube, you can find other songs like "Shadow Within" and "Alrite". Enjoy! :)

Projekt AK "FUNKdeMENTAL" Debut Album - OUT NOW!!

2011-01-11T17:17:00.003+08:00

PROJEKT AK's latest album FUNKdeMENTAL
is
OUT IN STORES AND ONLINE NOW!!!

RM29.90
Purchase Online at projektak@gmail.com

Songs:
1. Higher
2. By the Beach
3. Groovin
4. Confusion
5. Tonite
6. Angel
7. Rendesvous In Rhu
8. Shadow Within
9. Inspirasi
10. Alright

GET YOUR COPY NOW!!

You can also order through me. Message me or projektak@gmail.com now!

Happy Birthday..

2011-01-07T01:53:00.004+08:00

Thank you dear sis for the wonderful words in her blog, for my birthday. Demmit girl you made me cry.

Words can't express how I love you too... Saranghe..

I wrote a loooong blog for you on your birthday and it disappeared while loading.. @#$%!
You know inspirations don't come that easy.

Well, you don't know how much I envy you too. I guess each of us have totally different paths so our conversations won't be so boring when we meet. Like some family where everyone is a doctor hahaha... no offence doctors... but yeah I hate doctors hahahaha...

Anyway, here's my Happy Belated Birthday Wish/Blog to you, Aisha! Hugs and Kisses!! hug hug..

Projekt AK LIVE: Pantai Chenang, Langkawi 2010

2010-12-23T15:39:00.003+08:00

Catch Projekt AK at Langkawi this New Year's Eve!

Kugiran D'Tepi Pantai New Year Party

Venue: Babylon Batique, Pantai Chenang, Langkawi
Date: 31 December 2010
Time: 9.30pm onwards
Entrance: Free

See you there!!

Projekt AK LIVE: Fallen Heroes 2010

2010-12-08T13:50:00.006+08:00

PROJEKT AK
LIVE AT ONE CAFE... AGAIN!

Band-band yang akan menggegarkan hari anda:
PROJEKT AK
Infectious Maggots
Spiral Kinetic Circus
Marlinspike
dan ramai lagi
(sila tengok risalah di bawah)

ANDA MAHUKANNYA??? ANDA MAHUKAN MEREKA???
Kecapilah nikmat bermuzika bersama artis kesayangan anda 11hb Disember 2010 ini. Jangan lupa bawa duit lebih untuk makan Fish & Chips yang lazat di One Cafe! Adios!

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Untuk yang buta, saya ejakan satu-satu:

Date: 11 Dec 2010 (Saturday)
Venue: One Cafe, KL
Time: 2pm and so on
Ticket Price: RM25

Happy Birthday My Love

2010-12-05T04:21:00.004+08:00

Hubby-bee, though I'm not feeling well on this special day (yesterday that is), I hope you enjoyed your pre-birthday dinner and present, and a tiring outing with our hyper daughter.. :)

I've only known you a few years, yet I've learned a lot from you. Though sometimes your words are harsh, it never lack truth. Through bumpy roads, you were always there for me. Don't think I don't realise the sacrifices you've made to make me happy. You never fail to make me feel loved. When you include me in everything you do, I know you're comfortable with me, and that itself makes me special. That's why you're irreplaceable.

You're a great man, husband and father.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEE... Getaran jiwaku...

KL-Langkawi Transportation Budget

2010-11-08T14:14:00.008+08:00

Oh dear, how I HATE travel preparation!!!

I am going to Langkawi (thanks to Projekt AK for making me go there!), though I love Langkawi very much, I hate the preparation, packing, planning, and whatever there is to set my foot there! The worst part is... the budgetting!!! Next would be the packing... grrr...

Anyway, below is my budget list for transportation ONLY! I'll be going there with hubby and baby Myra... so that'll be 2 adults and 1 infant. I do hope anyone could guide/correct me.

I need to pick the best, safest, most baby-friendly option, because my 'lil angel can't keep quite for more than an hour! hehe..

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I'd go for the flight. Tapi mahal nak mampos! Takpe..takpe... nanti aku tidur aku pikirkanlah...
Korang jangan curi flight seat aku pulak!!!! Aku tengah planning baik-baik ni tetiba takde seat... worst still kalau harga naik lagi!

And that's why I don't travel.... &%$#@!

%$#&*!&!!
#$%&!!!
$%^@$$$$$$$$*$$$$$$$$$$$$$????!!!!!

Projekt AK LIVE @ One Cafe 13 Nov 2010

2010-11-08T11:13:00.007+08:00

JANGAN LUPA WOIIII!!!!

Tak nampak ke? Meh aku ejakan satu-satu..

***PROJEKT AK***
ROCKSTAR CONVENTION
ONE CAFE JALAN TAR
13 NOV 2010
ENTRY RM20
2PM TILL YOU DROP!

Other bands you might know: Blind Tribe and Subculture, plus many more..

Saya suka mengkritik maka tolonglah berikan show yang terbaik dari ladang dan perangai penonton yang senonoh ya... ganbatte ne! sekian.

entry reposted (3rd Oct 2010)

upcoming gigs for Projekt AK:
11 dec 2010 - one cafe
new year's eve - babylon langkawi

My New Love - Moly

2010-10-28T13:13:00.007+08:00

Was a hardcore mountain biker since young...

But I am now into fixies! Meet my new love, GT Chromoly! (Gotta give her a name, or I'll just call her Moly)

Thanks hubby for working so hard to get the right one for me with a budget... I know, if we had more cash..... $$$..... the list would be endless.... :D haha...

Mula-mula memang susah la nak handle prewel mati ni. Mana tak nye, kayuh laju-laju pastu pedal tu pun sama laju jugak tak neutral. Turun bukit lagi bahana. Nak break, nak landing... gelabah jugak. Lagipun, seumur hidup I memang dengan BMX dan mountain bike je. So, hubby and I went for a practice ride (for me la), to 'know' my ride. Suai kenal namanya. 3 jam kitorang pusing-pusing tasik Putrajaya yang ada menara roket tu. Lama-lama aku dah tak pakai break dah. Break pakai pedal. Nanti aku nak buang la satu break. Sekarang dua-dua break ada, kecut lagi... :p

Catch me at Putrajaya from time to time. I may want to join those night riders. Curious to know.. hehehe...

New Age Messaging

2010-10-14T12:07:00.002+08:00

Pernah tak korang (atau mak korang) layan live chat kat tv tu? Ye, yang mahal, RM0.50 satu mesej.. Memang tak masuk akal la nak chat pun nak kena bayar mahal-mahal. Pastu pandai pulak Moderator dia bagi subjek yang hangat supaya orang lagi ligat la nak memberi sesen dua idea dan pendapat.

Tapi, apa yang aku takleh tahan sekali... pertama-tama sekali (ex-boss aku selalu cakap camni, dia cina nak try cakap melayu pasar tak berbaku, hahaha kelakar..) sambung.. pertama-tama sekali CARA penulisan tu memang aku tak boleh blahhhh...............

q da lamer x on9
k0wunk
pew khabar
charyunk
aQ lapar lar
sayElse <-- haha tetiba nak kutuk "sials" ni.. eh memang nama dia ok..

dan pelbagai lagiiiiiiiiii.... termasuk saiz font yang suka-suka nAk TukaR pAda BebiLa mAsa.

Ini lagi satu petanda aku sudah tua dan tidak mengikuti peredaran zaman. Aku tak kisah la kau nak mengedar zaman ke, zaman beredar-edar ke, kau nak beredar sekali pun aku tak peduli, tapi kalau nak beredaran boleh tak nampak kemas sikit? Sakit mata, jiwa dan raga bila nak baca. Kalau anak aku sms aku camtu memang aku buang fon dia dalam toilet. Kalau nak mengarut eja suka hati, aku boleh hantar pergi kelas mengeja. Bahasa belum masuk lagi tu...

Apa alasan? Nak jimatkan ruang? Ada macam-macam lagi la cara nak pendekkan ayat... haiyooo...

Okla sudah... ni kira buang masa menaip je nih...

Projekt AK LIVE: Rockstar Convention 2010

2010-10-03T22:55:00.010+08:00

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Hey there, funksters! Told y'all that Projekt AK will be performing after Raya. I'll see you there!

***PROJEKT AK***
ROCKSTAR CONVENTION
ONE CAFE JALAN TAR
13 NOV 2010
ENTRY RM20
2PM TILL YOU DROP!

Other bands you might know: Blind Tribe and Subculture, plus many more..

***
p/s: personal dislike for the flyer. no offense, it's just me. aku kan paranoid sket..

***

UPCOMING GIG
FOR
PROJEKT AK

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ORGANIZERRRR TOLONG BERENTI SIKAP SUKA SALAH TAIP NAMA BAND!
MACAM KORANG TAK AMBIK KISAH ISI HATI PEMINAT....
APATAH LAGI BAND-MEMBERS...

Selamat Hari Raya 2010

2010-10-03T22:41:00.002+08:00

I don't blog much these days. Either I am too busy, or I just have a pc mobile that can't upload pictures on blogspot.. yet.. thus making me lazy enough to blog. Anyway, I promised to post a picture of my baby Humairah wearing baju kurung Fara did for her... Although she looks cute in it, she still has the attitude of a little mons... angel.. hihihi... Myra.. myra... you're the apple of my eyes... :)

This weekend, my friends and I plan to do Potluck Raya. By invitation only. My menu will be Curry mee... slurppp... lama tak buat. See you girls this weekend! Mwahs!

I Don't Talk To Idiots

2010-09-05T10:52:00.004+08:00

Idiots annoy me big time. From dumbasses to zero IQs to assholes. If you see me not talking in a group, means I have detected an idiot. And if this idiot talks to me, God knows I want to shove my feet down his throat.. badly.

Life makes you bitchy. Life taught me to be bitter. And I don't give a damn if people hate me, coz I generally hate people. I am comfortable on my own... and with my own set of people..

Humairah's Baju Raya - 2010

2010-09-04T17:38:00.003+08:00

And again, this year's baju raya(s) are made by my ol' goody friend, Fara a.k.a Liz Rashid the "I Can Do That" Missy! And yes Fara, you can do anything!! I love you!

Just see how pretty the baju kurung and dress are. I just fell in love with it. Lagi-lagi bila Myra pakai, comel sangat-sangat... I will take pictures when Raya comes...

Next year, I'm forcing Fara to do my baju raya... heheheheheheeeehhhh....

For more of her crafts, visit I Can Do That!

Nona Zaman Sekarang

2010-08-26T11:45:00.007+08:00

Classic!

Lagu ni aku perform masa sekolah rendah Darjah 3 kot... nyanyi je la, bukan main instrument.
Our (Malaysian/Singaporean) musicians during those times do have the same standard as those abroad... giler arh...

Bukan nona je sekarang... semualah... termasuk aku... :p

Lirik dia cerita masa zaman tu, kalau zaman sekarang mesti lagi panjang lagu ni.. 8 minit kot...

note: i believe the song is not related to the video. though it kinda match.

Projekt AK "FUNKdeMENTAL" Debut Album - Out Soon!

2010-08-24T13:46:00.010+08:00

---------------
. P R O J E K T . A K .
----------------
FUNKdeMENTAL
2010 DEBUT ALBUM

COMING SOON TO FUNK YOUR MINDS
After Raya (2010)

My love/hate relationship with this band goes a long way. Can't wait for it to be out after so long. I mean like really really really long! All the best, guys.

For shows, contact Projekt AK
or through me also can one... (warning: aku extremely garang)

Projekt AK (Acid Trip - LIVE!): Underworld Screamers Penang 2010

2010-08-23T13:53:00.004+08:00

Projekt AK - Acid Trip
LIVE @ Underworld Screamers Penang 2010

Logo-logo Pilihan

2010-08-23T12:34:00.006+08:00

Mana cantek?

http://www.kpwkm.gov.my/

http://www.stride.gov.my http://www.jpa.gov.my

http://www.skmm.gov.my/

http://www.hasil.gov.my/

They all look the same to me...

MC Days

2010-08-18T14:10:00.005+08:00

Dah 3 hari aku mc ok... I hate it when I'm sick. I'm so useless and lousy and grumpy.

Tapi sempat jugak la aku plan aktiviti bersama kawan-kawan Sabtu ni. Nak buka puasa dengan dorang kat Secret Recipe, Subang Parade. Kelakar kan? Kalau baca ni mesti ingat post aku ni tahun 2003. Dah la Secret Recipe... Subang Parade lak tu. Itu tandanya, aku dah tua, mangkukkkk... Tapi aku tak tua lagi. Ada orang kata aku 25 tahun. Kembang kempis tersengih aku... :8D

Petanda Terkena Gangguan Jin

2010-08-11T13:40:00.003+08:00

Petanda Terkena Gangguan Jin

1) Sakit kepala dan dada selepas waktu asar keatas.
2) Badan terasa berat dan malas.
3) Sukar mendapat jodoh.
4) Badan terasa bisa-bisa/gatal.
5) Sakit/takut ketika ziarah orang meninggal.
6) Sukar tidur malam.
7) Sakit pinggang tanpa sebab.
8) Sakit dada bila waktu asar keatas.
9) Mimpi melihat binatang seperti ular dan binatang berbisa.
10) Bermimpi bayi/kanak-kanak atau menyusukan bayi.
11) Bermimpi jatuh dari tempat tinggi.
12) Bermimpi di tempat yang kotor.
13) Sakit anggota badan tertentu seperti kaki,tangan selepas waktu asar.
14) Ada terasa benda bergerak dibawah kulit.
15) Bayi kerap menangis.
16) Bunyi guli jatuh diatas syiling.
17) Suami isteri kerap bertengkar walau perkara kecil.
18) Sayang melampau-lampau pada orang yang baru dikenali.
19) Malas beribadat.
20) Nyanyuk ketika usia lanjut.
21) Panas baran.
22) Sikap berubah secara mendadak.
23) Gelisah dan panas ditengkuk bila dengar al-quran.
24) Suka melakukan tabiat buruk.
25) Kerap sendawa bila mendengar al-quran.
26) Kerap keguguran.
27) Gagal melakukan hubungan kelamin.
28) Mengantuk bila dengar al-quran.
29) Bermimpi seram yang menakutkan.
30) Darah haid turun lebih 15 hari.
31) Batuk yang berpanjangan tanpa sebab klinikal.
32) Selalu ditindih ketika tidur.
33) Kuat berangan.
34) Terlalu rasa rendah diri dan tidak berkeyakinan.
35) Nafsu seksual yang melampau.
36) Selalu melihat kelibat dirumah.
37) Terasa diri selalu diperhatikan/diekori.
38) Mandul.
39) Kerap mendengar sesuatu bisikan.
40) Melihat jin secara terus.
41) Sakit mental atau gila.

Lebih dari 3 simptom di atas, ada jin la tu dalam badan.
Rawat kat RAWATAN ISLAM ye... bukan bomoh.

Kalau nak test power ada tak jin dalam badan, mainkan (atau suruh orang bacakan) Ruqyah Syar'iyah, tutup mata dan dengar. Jangan baca dalam hati, jangan baca ikut surah, dengar je. Kalau lepas habis dengar tu ada batuk-batuk, berpeluh, rasa mual, jantung berdebar, rasa benda bawah kulit, sendawa, mengantuk, pening, menguap, etc.... ada jin la tu...

Aku ada test power tadi (main mp3), half-way through aku tertido... camne tu? (Tapi aku memang ngantuk pun dari pagi... eceh alasan)

Kawan aku cakap (sengaja tanak sebut nama), walaupun takde orang tujukan jin untuk kita (niat jahat), kadang-kadang jin tu sendiri nak menumpang badan kita. So, don't feel threatened if you think there's something in you. Consider yourself unlucky it picked you to suck out all the goodies in you. HAHAHAHAHAHAhahahhaha...... (gelak bergema)

Ayat Ruqyah

Points taken from Rawatan Islam website.
Bukan aku yang pandai-pandai.

Komen Yang Takde Hasil Kalau Baca

2010-08-09T11:49:00.003+08:00

Aku suka la komen-komen seperti kat chatbox aku tu (belah kiri bawah). Menunjukkan betapa mulianya hati orang-orang kita. Dari penulisan pun kita dapat agak umur orang tu... darjah 2 kot? Anyway, silalah komen macam tu lagi. Kasi hit page aku banyak lagi. Thank you.

Nak complain pasal Sate Kajang Haji Samuri..... korang memang sombong tahap dewa tonggeng. Silalah perbaiki perwatakan anda, kalau tidak mungkin business tak diberkati... sekian.

Rindu Kat Kawan-Kawan

2010-08-07T02:45:00.002+08:00

Haiii bila la bleh lepak ngan kawan-kawan aku...?

Sesi berbuka puasa, cadangan dibuka!!!

Projekt AK LIVE @ Switchblade!

2010-08-03T12:44:00.009+08:00

It's been a long time since I posted anything on Projekt AK. Too busy to write my own shit. Too busy to even sleep!

PROJEKT AK

Catch Projekt AK LIVE @ Switchblade

Date: 6th August 2010 (Friday)
Time: 10 p.m.
Venue: Switchblade™ Kuala Lumpur (click for map)

It's a clothing store & diner.
No cover charge.
Suitable for family with children.

Projekt AK has been quite actively performing in small gigs. To name some; Penang Underground Screamers (17th July 2010) and lately at Yoko's, Changkat Bukit Bintang (23rd July 2010).

For those who've missed them, don't forget to catch their last show at Switchblade before puasa month! I'll be there!

Be their fan here! Listen to their single and view their latest pics!

(After Raya, more shows to come)

*******

Download Corner

Caller Ringtone: Projekt AK "Higher"

Maxis

"Higher" (Chorus) - Dial *131*133346#
"Higher" (Bridge) - Dial *131*133347#

or

1. Go to musicunlimited
2. Click Buy either on "Higher" Chorus or "Higher" Bridge

RM3 first purchase, renew at RM2 per song per month.

Digi

1. Taip GET 10100234818 dan SMS ke 2000 :: untuk Lagu Penuh
2. Taip GET 10100234811 dan SMS ke 2000 :: untuk bahagian Bridge
3. Taip GET 10100234810 dan SMS ke 2000 :: untuk bahagian Chorus

or

1. Go to DiGi Music
2. Click on the download icon for Full Song, Bridge or Chorus

RM5 for full song, RM4 for Chorus or Bridge

*******

Kimchi - Open for Orders

2010-07-12T14:57:00.004+08:00

Apsal aku takde masa nak blog dah ni?????

Ok, setelah 8 jam aku berhempas di dapur nak buat makanan kegemaran aku, hubby and seluruh team Olympic Korea, kini Kimchi halal dari aku telahpun siap. 4 jam pemerapan, 2 jam penyediaan, 2 hari peram. so total berapa jam? 56 hours? Harga? RM8 je!! Berbaloi ke tak, terpulang pada individu. Bagi aku sangat berbaloi sebab aku suka makan kimchi. Ini je la diet terbaru aku boleh praktik. Makan dan makan lagi tanpa gemuk.. hahaha...

Gambar takde, tunggu la aku amik nanti. Nak blog pun takde masa camne? Ni aku nak pegi Avon pun tak pegi-pegi lagi. Patu kain kat umah dah bertimbun macam boleh buat tilam 'single' lagi satu. Belum tengok ladang nenas belakang umah aku, senget sebab kurang kasih sayang. hahaha... cian dia..

Kimchi Dibitz
RM8/pack (equivalent to taufufa packaging)
Ingredients contain fish sauce and sesame seed. Vegan harap maaf...
Bahan-bahan dan kawasan penyediaan halal. Eceh sekarang kawasan penyediaan pun kena halal.

Setakat area aku selalu lalu, aku deliver terus la. Kalau nak pos, kena invest packaging mahal sket, botol ke apa supaya tak tumpah. Harga pun kena lain la kot.

Acar Buah Hajjah Rubiah Lubis Pre-Order

2010-06-29T14:39:00.008+08:00

RM 8 / pack
(approx. weight: 320g)
Pic credits to Adarasa

(picture may vary)

RM 8 / pack
(approx. weight: 320g)

Choice of order:
-Acar buah
-Acar buah + limau
-Acar limau (mahal sket la ye)

Other specialties:
-Paceri Nenas (yang jenis clear, bukan kari)
-Kimchi (jeruk hidangan harian orang Korea)
-Mi Kari

Acar buah bersama limau (hard to get this).
Pre-order now for Hari Raya.
Nak order untuk sekarang pun boleh.

Bila masak, janganlah terlebih santan. Yang renyah-renyah, biarlah saya lakukan.
Haha... ceeee.... motto tahpape...

Garaa Band - Lost Live @ KL Jam Asia

2010-06-14T10:25:00.004+08:00

Dulu sebelum kesedaran tentang Illuminati, Freemason, Zionist dan sebagainya, kitorang selalu lepak Starbucks. Almost everyday you can find me at Starbucks with Fyzal. Alasan: ada wi-fi. Hoi, time dulu memang susah nak cari tempat ada wi-fi. Starbucks saja yang ada. Kena pulak kitorang memang suka layan surfing, baca manga online, blabla..

That afternoon, Fyzal and I took half-day off and went straight to Starbucks Wangsa Maju. We'd of course bring our casual clothes and change before hanging out, just like school days. Our favourite was Hazelnut Hot Coffee. Thanks to Elly who introduced to me that drink. She said while she was in the US, she sipped hazelnut coffee on a breezy chilly day and said "sedapnyeeeeee.... panas dan sungguh sedap...". Lepas tu aku pun cuba la. Tau je la, Starbucks tu sejuk betul. And of course it was really good for chilly days. Bliss!

Fyzal and I just loafed around, reading manga, watching youtube, just totally lazing like no other people's business, when later Apek, Nan and Arab arrived. We watched this really funny Japanese comedy: Cromartie High - the Movie. It was from a manga turned movie. Sumpah lawak cerita tu. Lawak bangang tahap tak masuk akal. (Tapi aku rasa Detroit Metal City lagi kelakar la). Kitorang boleh la duduk beramai-ramai tengok skrin laptop cerita bangang tu pastu gelak sampai menangis-nangis. I tell you, zaman remaja aku telah di"extend"kan sehingga lewat 20-an. It was one of my best times. Living like nobody cares. (Drinks ordered: 2 cups, Hours spent: approx. 8 hours).

After the "movie", I saw Arab went out for a smoke. I followed him and stood next to him while he lighted his cigarrette. I turned to him; "OoooOOooo... minat kat kawan I ye...?". Tersengih dia; "Hehehe... eh minat la...". "You nak kawan ngan dia ke?", I asked shamelessly. "Kalau boleh apa salahnye...".

So, one day I picked Elly from her house, while rambling about my problems to her, I drove to Keramat to pick Fyzal and Arab. It's not that they don't have cars, but it was part of my plan. So the boys sat behind us, Fyzal was behind Elly and Arab behind me. And one thing I will remember 'til I die, Arab all of a sudden became childish, happy, jumpy, grinning away... pastu cuit-cuit lengan aku dari belakang. Cuit cuit cuit cuit cuit... I turned quietly to him and signaled; "Shhh!!!!". Tak sangkanya dia sungguh happy. Aku rasa takde siapa yang happy sebegitu bila jumpa aku! Hahaha..

Tu la dia, dia memang minat kat Elly sejak pertemuan pertamanya di rumah kawan kami di Puchong itu. Fyzal la yang bagitau aku. Bukan main happy lagi dapat keluar bersama-sama. Elly of course didn't know about my plans. But after that it was all up to Arab to make his first move. I only opened the door for him, and he did the rest. And they are still a very loving couple until now. I'm so glad they look good with each other. I believe they compliment each other very well.

Remembering those days really make me smile. Like I said, felt like my crazy days were extended. Doing silly things, skipping work, adhoc plans, hanging out til late, falling in love, meeting new people... I wish I could go back and do it all over again, not changing anything, but going through it again.

So, here's our last song, I managed to finish it in one day, melody and lyrics. We rushed for this last piece because we were about to perform not long after that. I remember writing the lyrics in a foodcourt at Low Yat. Because Apek named the song "Lost", I tried to just hover over the title. It represents all my girlfriends who were going through tough times in their love life at the time. Tough times are gone now. Lagu ni sebenarnya tak siap, macam tajuk dia jugak la, lost. Hehe.. Hope you enjoy this last number.

Lost
Song: Apek, Dibitz, Fyzal, Arab, Nan
Lyrics: Dibitz

Touch my soul tonight
Help me heal this pain
In the rain
I don't wanna fight
I don't wanna sink myself
With this chain

Trapped in yearning
Free but I'm crying

Hold me close tonight
I wanna feel you close
And remain
Reach me hold me tight
Free me from this coldness
I am chained

Trapped in yearning
Free but I'm crying

Calling for your love
Lost in silence
I'm alone
Wasted, shattered dreams
So cold

Calling for your love
Lost in silence
I'm all alone
Wasted memories
They're all gone

Sayonara people!

Brainwashing

2010-06-09T11:46:00.005+08:00

"Brainwashing is a system of befogging the brain so a person can be seduced into acceptance of what otherwise would be abhorrent to him. He loses touch with reality. Facts and fancy whirl round and change places.... However, in order to prevent people from recognizing the inherent evils in brainwashing, the Reds pretend that it is only another name for something already very familiar and of unquestioned respect, such as education or reform." Edward Hunter, Brainwashing (New York: Pyramid Books, 1956), pages 185-186)

When I think about it, it is true mostly what we learned in school (especially Unifarksity), WE DON'T REALLY USE THEM! The true reason we go to school, colleges and university, is because we were taught to. More than half of my life is/was spent with other than my family!
Money, Power, Fame, Respect. These were the goals. These were my goals.
What do I get now? None of them. Such a waste of time. If I didn't got to that extent in school, I'd just end up at the same place I am now. Unless of course you're the bread of those special boys club fraternity shit.

Should I send my children to school then? Sigh... Sekolah pondok boleh?

Surroundings falling like withered flowers... one by one, we all fall... If not physically, it's always emotionally... Always attacking our soul... always...

Expectations, we must throw this away. We don't expect, we don't hope, and we won't be failed.

I am not afraid of you.

GAMBAR TRIBUTE TO ROCK KANGKANG 2010

2010-06-02T14:47:00.010+08:00

Gua janji tak pernah mungkir ya... nah gambar-gambar...

Gambar-gambar yang aku sempat ambil adalah Candy, Sons of Adam, Junction dan Rockers sahaja. Tapi gambar-gambar Candy and Sons of Adam tak cantik, maka ini saja la yang boleh lepas QC. Enjoy!

Hatta (Junction)

Junction performing.
Look at all the cameras around me. Made mine really looked like from the 90's.

Hatta (Junction) on the speakers where we stood. Boleh capai dengan tangan.

BJ (Rockers)
A true guitar hero.

Joe (Rockers)
Rockstar habis gaya dia.
"Berapa banyak lagu daa... sikit-sikit sudah la. Ko bukan tau umur aku masih mudaaa..."
Cracks me up everytime!

Irman (Rockers) & I
Ni la gambar yang aku rasa disabotajkan. Next time aku belikan dia cekak, suruh pakai sebelum bergambar. No kompromi. Irman you owe me another picture.
Irman, my drum hero. Kalau setakat Malaysia & Singapura, Irman memang no. 1, bagi aku la...

Me, Arab, Hatta (Junction) & his girl.

Elly, Arab (lagi? tak aci), Hatta (Junction) & his girl, Fyzal

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Going back to the 90's was really fun. I was really impressed some dressed the way it was then.

Tapi jangan la harap setiap gig Rock Kangkang aku pergi. Memang tak laa.. Ini pun pasal dorang ni aje.

Additional:
Oh ya.. after reading my comments, I must mention that the crowd that night were really great. And the rockstars were very friendly. I guess the years built them. :)

TRIBUTE TO ROCK KANGKANG 2010

2010-06-01T11:50:00.006+08:00

Yup, gua dah cakap gua pergi, lu apasal tak pergi?

Anyway, we reached there kinda early. Like, after lunch? Awal nak mampos, konon-konon nak terserempak la dengan Irman Rockers. Haha... bertuah le. Dapat tau dorang main lepas Maghrib. Lepas Maghrib??? Adeh. Mesti habis kul 11pm. Humairah kena duduk lama la kat rumah tok-tok dia. Sorry dear. And sorry papa and mama. :p

Of course I was not interested with the other bands, so hubby and I went strolling at Pertama. Mengenang kembali zaman kanak-kanak, kitorang berdua bantai main game kat sana. Haha.. Game apa lagi, game ol-skool la. Street Fighter II and Raiden II. Sah kitorang dah tua, round ke-2 dah senget-senget badan elak peluru sambil jerit-jerit. Dulu boleh main sambil berborak gelak-gelak lagi... cehh dulu siap tau kat mana takkan kena peluru, duduk setempat patu jeling-jeling keliling, muka control la apalagi. Walau bagaimana pun.... nama kita tetap ranking 1 and 2 okay.... hehe mana tak nye, mana ada orang main game tu dah, hahaha... raking 3 nama dia AAA... (default).

Lepas ArabElly sampai, kitorang pun bergerak ke 1Cafe tu. Ternampak Hatta Junction kat sana. Pergh dah nak pergi salam dah, nak ambil gambar sama-sama. (Rupa-rupanya bukan! Hahaha... seb baik tak bikin malu). Dari jauh muka sama ok. He won the best dress award later on. Kalau korang pergi, mesti korang tau siapa. Maybe it was just us who thinks he looks like Hatta. 20 tahun la mana orang nak cam dah.

Anyway, we went in when Candy was performing. I think they look prettier than before. Of course their final song "Akan Ku Tunggu" was a major craze. There's this one guy who jumped up on stage and sang from verse 2 until the end. Potong betul. Weh mahal tau tiket ni, kesian la kat peminat Candy. Apa-apapun, Candy tetap rock.

Lepas tu, rehat untuk Solat Maghrib. Dalam pukul 8pm, Sons of Adam pulak perform. Seriously I have never listened to them before. Aku masih muda kot. Otai tetap otai. Dorang main memang sapu habis la artis muda kita sekarang. Aku suka bassist dia, tapi aku rasa dia bukan line-up original. Sessionist je kot. Tapi aku suka lah. Suka suka suka. Pastu boleh la pulak orang jerit "Itu blues! Bukan rock.." Eh eh... boleh pulak kamu ye...

Junction pula naik pentas. Time ni la kitorang dapat tau kitorang salah "Hatta" awal-awal tadi. We chanted Hatta's name until he noticed our group and came straight to shake our hands. Lu memang cool la bro. When they started, he even jumped on the monitors, like exactly above me and sang. To my notice, everyone beneath him was in awe. I quickly snapped pictures (to be uploaded) with my goddamn old fashioned camera. I should get a new one. Memang teruk la kalau ambil gambar dalam dewan. Apa-apa pun tak nampak. Nampak habuk je lebih. Of course they played the old time favourite song "Akan Ku Kenang" in a much lower key. But Hatta sure still can pull his vocals. Scream Hatta Scream! I enjoyed every bit of their perfomance.

And then Revenge came up on stage. (bunyi cengkerik)
Pemotong mood.

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The most awaited band finally came up on stage, Rockers! By this time, I totally lost my voice. I could not sing along. Sad sad sad. To me, I was happy when they played Harakah. One of my favourite song. I just could not take my eyes off Irman, the drummer. To be honest, I started listening to Rockers just a couple of years ago. Thanks to hubby, it's all worth the listening. When I first heard them, I was amazed by the music. The drumming especially, Irman sure does not play like any local/malay rock bands. And I bet, some international drummers can't play like him either. So, our mission was to experience first hand on his drumming skills. Okay, memang melampau. All their songs were improvised that night. Sigh. BJ the guitar hero, and the original vocalist (what's his name) was on bass. Kitorang sempat la bergambar dengan Irman. Tapi gambar hubby je yang lawa, gambar aku cam ... Rasa macam Irman dan hubby ada perasaan dengki kat aku kot. Boleh tak time bergambar dengan aku kipas tiup kat rambut Irman lalu tertutup la muka dia. Hubby pulak tak check balik gambar! eeeeeeeee...... aku buat rambut khas untuk saat itu tau!

Takpe, gambar aku bersama Hatta lawa...

Datang la lagi ye Rockers. We love you!

p/s: Pasal sound system, no comment. Aku duduk betul-betul kat speaker.

Going Kimchi Over You

2010-05-20T13:10:00.003+08:00

"kimchi, i love you..."

Aku tak sabar! Hujung minggu ni, aku nak buat kimchi.

I don't care. Aku nak buat berbalang-balang kimchi! Berbekas-bekas banyaknya sampai aku muntah darah makan kimchi nih... Kau tunggu laaaaa...!!!!

Siapa nak pesan, cakap cepat. Boleh aku beli lebih bahan-bahan. Nak buat bukan sekejap. Alang-alang buat banyak terus. First try, FOC. Sedap tak sedap belakang kira. Hahahaa...

Bila kimchi ni dah siap, bolehlah makan dengan nasi. Ganti sambal belacan. Atau kimchi ni boleh dibuat sup, rasa ala-ala tomyam. Sedapnya... slurrrrrp.

Kimchi boleh simpan lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....... sebab dia dah jadi jeruk. Tambahan lagi, kimchi adalah makanan untuk kesihatan.

Ok, aku tak tau sampai bila aku gilakan kimchi ni. I am so makcik-makcik nowwww!!!! Tolong!!!!!

Jangan Panik

2010-05-19T15:15:00.006+08:00

I had the weirdest dream (not), Dian P. Ramlee was my mom's neighbour and she was evil as a witch. She scolded me for parking in front of her house. I smiled and looked at her, "Aunty!".

"Don't call me aunty!", she shouted back.
"Oh, err kakak? You don't remember me but you may remember my mom."
"Yea.. hmph like who?"
"Rubiah Lubis?", I smiled.
"Yeah, I know her. So what do you want?", she was evil, not the cheery looking face I see on tv.
"Err.. nothing? I wasn't looking for you. My mom's house is over there.", I pointed towards my mom's house, just 3 doors away.

So she looked at where I pointed, then looked at me, "Ok fine, come in. What do you want to drink? Help yourself to the lemon barley at the counter. We're having a mini party for our daughter."

wtf. I'm not going to continue with this stupid dream story. hahaha... This is what you get for dozing off at noon.

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Anyway, I'm freaking annoyed with my colleague and principals and bosses and big boss. Jangan panik boleh tak? Timeline for delivery dah dekat, ye aku tau. Tapi korang boleh tak buat decision yang tak kelam kabut sangat. So unproffesional. Set a date for delivery and that's it. Dah bertahun buat bisnes pun kabut. Pfft...

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I tell you what I'm addicted to now. Kimchi. Kimchi. Kimchi. Kimchi.
Please take me to The Gardens' Foodcourt. I want KIMCHI!!! I slurrrrrping love you kimchiiiii!!!!!!!!!

Bee, jom la.. kimchi... pleaseee...... *wink* *wink* *wink*

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2010-05-13T15:23:00.001+08:00

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TRIBUTE TO ROCK KANGKANG 2010

2010-05-07T17:43:00.018+08:00

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Rock terus! Jumpa lu di sana!

Happy Anniversary!

2010-05-06T11:57:00.003+08:00

Hahahaha... See you ROCKERS this 30 May 2010!

HAPPY 3rd ANNIVERSARY BEE! I LOVE YOU!

I'm glad I quit Facebook

2010-05-05T13:31:00.006+08:00

After reading one of my fav blogger Chawanna, I know now I made the right choice of not getting too involved in Facebook. During those days where I was actively commenting, tagging, browsing, etc friends' pages, I found myself getting heated up everytime I read stupid comments here and there. Like, why the hell do I care in the first place? I should just let them be the way they are. But no, you tend to get too absorbed in it. And me being temperamental, I just couldn't control my anger.

Now I barely touch Facebook, and I feel so much 'healthier'. Come on people, get your face off that Facebook. Smell the flowers and coffee. See the bright daylight. Watch the evening rain. Take a walk in the park. Do something else besides tapping on your keyboard. Our life is short, treasure it.

When you're 40, and people ask you "What did you do when you were 30?". Gosh I have no answer. Hahahahaha...

But don't get me wrong. Some do make good use of Facebook. Doing business, meet old friends, spread good words of faith, etc. Unfortunately, majority of us just browse and nose around other people's businesses. Yes? Envying other people's success. Yes? Comparing your tummy with some hot chicks abs. Yes? Oh okay that was just me. :)

Anyway, push it all aside. Malaysian's no.1 browsing site is... jeng jeng jeng... Facebook. So... Let's do something more meaningful! I am glad my close friends have other activities besides Facebooking. Not like this one aunty I saw in Al-Rawsha Ampang, from her car to the table through dinner and back to her car, her notebook was on and her face was practically in the notebook, smiling, giggling. Hahaha... Kesian. Laki dia duduk sebelah dia hisap rokok sampai paru-paru nak pecah. Jangan esok-esok rumahtangga pun pecah. Touch wood.

During Myspace was not so bad because it didn't have this News Feed feature. Facebook has like everything and everything about your 'friend'. Things you supposedly need not know, you know. Sometimes without knowing, we breached people's privacy and we assume our friend is happy (when they're not) and vice versa. Yes, so why put up a status if you don't want people to know about your life? Sometimes, we get angry we don't think right, and we put whatever nonsense in your status and now the whole world knows you are unhappy (or are you really unhappy)? Okay, whatever. I'm just babbling nonsense now.

What I'm trying to say is, don't guess/assume about other people. It's a sin. Aku dah lari topik ke ni? I think so hahaha...

Anyway, let's cherish our life. Go do something meaningful. I promise you, it's way more fun than Facebooking. Instead of chatting through the net, why don't we just go meet them over a cup of tea. Won't that be more sincere? Plus seeing your friend smile infront of you gives you inner happiness. (Okay you can stop gawking! pfft..)

Tomorrow is a sacred day for me. Happy Anniversary Bee. I loved you then. I love you more now.

Disney and Its Hideout : Hypocrisy

2010-05-03T13:56:00.005+08:00

Disney hired Victor Salva, a convicted child molester, to direct its movie Powder. When Salva's victim, Nathan Winters, then 20, publicized the hiring, some of the police officers who investigated the 1987 molestation were incredulous that Salva was working again as a movie director. "It just blows me away," said Officer Gary Primavera. "He has serious signs of still being a pedophile." One Disney official, John Dreyer, refused to respond to Winter's demand that Disney fire Salva, saying, "What's the point other than you want to make headlines?"
That's compassion for you. Continuing to be employed with Disney money, Salva has made "Jeepers Creepers" and "Jeepers Creepers 2" (2004) which he wrote and directed. With his history in mind, watching the movies with their undercurrents and teen boys is creepy.

Newsweek reported that in 1996, Disney considered buying Ripe, a movie about the deflowering of 14-year-old twins. Bad publicity was all that stopped the deal from being made.

In 1995, Disney-owned Miramax released the homosexual movie, "Lie Down With Dogs". Great book, horrible movie. Seems Disney just wanted to make a "gay" movie to be hip and get in the gay market. The reviews written about it at Amazon.com are better than the torture of the film.

Kids (Miramax) was described by Variety magazine as "one of the most controversial American movies ever made." According to Newsweek, "The film follows a number of barely pubescent-looking boys and girls around New York City as they smoke pot, bait gays, beat a black man and engage in graphic sex. "Under pressure Miramax formed an independent company to market and distribute the pornographic movie." (Daily Variety, 1/27/95; Newsweek, 2/20/95; Wall Street Journal, 3/30/95; Associated Press, 6/29/95)

Priest, another Miramax release, depicts five Catholic priests as perverts and blames their perversion on Church teachings. One priest is homosexual-as-pervert; a second an adulterer; a third an alcoholic; a fourth demented; and the fifth just plain mean and vicious. This was such an alarming and sick movie that the gay newspaper The Advocate reported it under the heading "Family Alert Issues" 3/10/95, 4/4/95, 4/18/95;

When Disney's Hollywood Records released an album by the band Sacred Reich, they sent thousands of marijuana bongs to radio stations as an advertising ploy to get them to play the record. Yet DIsney claims a staunch and rabidly anti-drug stance.

Glen Danzig and his band of the same name was picked and groomed by Disney to be a kind of Disney-exclusive money making rock machine, much as today's hand-picked-and-groomed "Boy Bands" ala N'Sync and Backstreet Boys. Danzig, to hear him tell, is a self-proclaimed Satanist and sang about suicide, self-mutilation, sex with demons, and rape. The band once made a video called, "It's Coming Down" with scenes of sadomasochism, masturbation and genital mutilation. MTV found it so offensive they refused to air it. Danzig also starred in a Disney made movie, Prophecy II (it's hysterically bad..if you need a laff, go rent it). When questioned about this hardcore "talent" and nefarious past, Disney said Danzig was "harmless, simply misunderstood". They saw Glen's "message" as behavior as some rock-theater-clowning. Danzig fans would disagree and so it would appear that Danzig's band and lifestyle was pretty hard core and serious. Yet there he was making weenie-*** Disney Movies...so who's scamming who?

Bands signed by Disney owned and funded Hollywood Records include(d):

Human Waste Product - who sing about sex with the Virgin Mary while calling Her a "whore".

NY Loose - whose main theme in their songs is suicide. Suicide is the 3rd leading cause of death among 15-24 year olds. Wholesome Disney family fun.

Seaweed - whose hit song was called "Drug Free Zone". The promo literature put out by the company quoted the lead singer as saying he did "so much cocaine my nose exploded into a bloody mess and I had to have plastic surgery. That was a pretty good one". This upset a lot of radio people (and parents) and who knew the age group who was reading this stuff.

Death Row Records and Interscope Records was acquired by Disney in 1997. The main fodder of these two companies is "gangsta rap", your basic misogynist, violent "black" music ALA Snoop Doggy Dogg and Dr. Dre. The Wall Street Journal reported that the FBI was investigating Death Row Records for gun and drug trafficking, and money laundering. In spite of this investigation, Disney Boss Michael Eisner offered Interscope's Tom Whalley a multimillion dollar contract to take over Hollywood Records. Whalley declined.

In 1989 Disney became a partner, and the one to own the largest % of shares in, Viewer's Choice "Hot Choice" - a leader in Pay-Per-View cable soft porn. Until Disney showed up, Viewer's Choice had only played action films and comedies. The profits were decent but Disney wanted better, and decided to launch the "soft porn" division in 1993. To develop original programming for their creation, Disney offered porn star Becky LeBeau a $7-figure deal and share of the profits. She appeared in many films herself and hosted an all-nude modeling program which showed explicit footage if women, some as young as 18. Disney also signed the infamous and famous Marilyn Chambers, a veteran hard core porn star, to an exclusive multi-project deal a year after she won the "Lifetime Achievement Award" from the Adult Video Association.

Viewer's Choice has an exclusive contract with a production company for a series called, "American Stripper On Tour". The film crew visits all-nude strip joints around the country.

Bottom line?

Disney owns the largest percentage, as a partner, in the biggest company in the soft-to-medium porn market.
Disney owns many of the huge record labels producing the very bands and topics the "Parental Advisory" label was created for - bands that glorify rape, drugs, murder, hate, racism, violence against women, violence, period
Disney owns many of the huge movie studios producing some of the most outrageous crap yet to be made. You won't find any mention of those details as they push their Family Friendly, Pro-Family, Pro-Mom&Dad, Pro-Happy Safe Healthy Children Agenda though. As one insider said, "The New Disney will do just about anything to make a buck".
Can you feel the Disney Magic?

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My say:
It's not that it is not okay to be "not okay" with all these crap. The question is; what makes you think it's okay to be "open-mided" with these crap. They made you think it is okay, yes?
We do have faith still, don't we?

"From among the Signs of the Hour is that the Religious knowledge will be taken away (by the death of religious Scholars) and general ignorance (or religion) will appear" -Saheeh Bukharee

Sigh, I'm still so far away.

Twinkle Little Star and You

2010-04-28T14:39:00.005+08:00

Try to understand that Aleister Crowley the Satanist insisted his students to emphasize in backmasking. Believed to influence and mould through subliminal messages, in this topic, talk/sing backwards. I'm cutting this short, it's no point elaborating if you disagree with me at any point.

However, I asked myself many times, does the song "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star" have any subliminal messages in it. I mean, it has the word Star in it, and I am extra sensitive with the words One, Eye, Order, Star, Sun, etc.

And it turned out to be worse than I can imagine. Thank you hubby for sourcing this out for me.

If you think it's crap, fine, suit yourself. If you can't at least feel terrible about this, wow, you sure are heartless.

No need to jump about it, the song somewhat does not oppose that Allah exists, right? Hehehe.. Loser.

I haven't have the time to search who actually composed this song. It doesn't matter any how. Satan has been around before we did and ever since he was casted out of Heaven, he'll do anything to stray us from the right path. So, does it matter who wrote it?

"Berwaspadalah terhadap syaitan demi keselamatan agama kamu. Dia telah berputus asa untuk menyesatkan kamu dalam perkara-perkara besar, maka berjaga-jagalah supaya kamu tidak mengikuti dalam perkara-perkara kecil."

- sebahagian daripada KHUTBAH TERAKHIR NABI MUHAMMAD S.A.W. Khutbah ini disampaikan pada 9hb Zulhijjah. Tahun 10 Hijriyang di Lembah Uranah, Gunung Arafah

Yes, I am not perfect. A little effort goes a long way, InsyaAllah.

Projekt AK : upcoming gig

2010-04-20T12:40:00.003+08:00

Aku dengar (dengar lagi..) Projekt AK ada show kat Pulau Pinang bulan Julai nih.

Ni last nih... kalau tahun ni Projekt AK tak kuar material dia, aku seriously nak sabotaj show dorang. Cth: Potong wayar mikrofon vokalis. Patu aku passkan gunting kat anak aku, supaya tak dapat disabitkan kesalahan.

Garaa Band - Neverends Live @ KL Jam Asia

2010-04-15T12:34:00.010+08:00

I was on a stage. A big stage. At some lake, some event was going on. The stage was huge that I could see my bandmates as small as a penny from afar. I looked up, the lightings was as fancy as Toto's concert. Wow! I've made it this far. I turned around to see the crowd. Shit! There were about 20 people sitting on the field grass, with drinks in their hands. Some brought snacks, hotdogs and things like that.

I turned around, "hit it guys!". The sound was superb! I looked up to see the monitors were as huge as Kancil cars. "Ok, what the hell. No crowd but the show must go on. This is a stepping stone. They're not here; the crowd. But they'll be reading this stuff somewhere soon. We've got to prove ourselves", I thought.

As I started singing, I sounded like a frog, with sore throat. "Damn, what the hell is wrong with today?", I swore endlessly in my heart. And it started to drizzle. "Just what I need", I kept on singing as I watched the crowd talking and not paying attention. I turned around and looked at my mates. They were not communicating, no eye contact. I turned to Nan, he was concentrating on his riffs. Well, at least someone was trying hard.

My voice started to warm up, and I sounded better. I was beginning to have fun and I felt something wrong with the sound. Like some instruments were missing. "God, must I always check what's going on?", I turned around and I saw Apek was missing. I looked at the others and they were all sour as yogurts. I looked at Fyzal and sign-languaged why? He suddenly stopped and put his drumsticks down and went backstage. Thankfully it was our 5-minute break. I ran backstage and asked, "What the hell is wrong with everybody?". Fyzal lighted a cigarette and looked away. "Where's Apek?". No answer. I peeked at the stage and saw Nan just standing there, and Arab missing too. "What is going on?? Why are we not talking?? We can't go on like this!". As I said that, Nan and Arab left the stage. Fyzal followed them. I stood there looking at them go. I turned around and the crowd was gone.

"So much for my dreams.."

And I woke up. It really was a dream, thank goodness! It felt so real. I really thought I was going to perfom on a huge stage. That adrenalin rush before a show, was so real.

I grabbed my phone, and Nan messaged saying he just finished recording the guitar chords for Neverends. He said I was free to compose freely for the melody. I couldn't wait, so we planned to meet up for teh tarik and discuss on the song.

In composing songs (for moneyless people like us), we'd record guitar chords on our handphones, and pass it around via bluetooth, for me to compose the melody and for the rest to practice on their guitars, bass and drums. I'd normally have a headache composing, because I want it to sound nice, at least. I'd record my vocals and pass it back to Nan for approval.

If I could recall correctly, I remember him saying I could compose anyhow I liked for Neverends, ending up him composing half of it too! Hahaha... well it's his song. I'd honor it. And it sounds way better than my original melody.

Our recording session was hillarious. We had no money. So we'd find the cheapest there is in town. Or at least the cheapest way to record our demo. We took just approximately 3 hours to record 2 demos; Ganbatte! and Spastik Primat. All four of them would go in the studio and record together, leaving out the vocal part for me. I would then continue with the vocal. I think I took most of the recording hours, because I couldn't reach my own damn key! The engineer told me to change the melody. And so I did, with a hopeless face. But during our actual recording for our mini album, I told my mates to bring down one key, so I could sing the original melody. Yay!

The demo recording was a mess. That engineer really took our work lightly. I sounded like a rubber ducky. Too much sound delay and echoes. The studio is now no more in business. I heard some bad kids robbed the studio or something.

Ajeep of Kluk Kluk Adventure helped us a lot in making our mini album. He made us his lab rabbits for his new love for audio mixing, and didn't ask for anything in return. But we paid him though, a little. We were really broke at that time.

I recorded my vocals at Ameer's studio in Ukay Perdana. At that time, the studio wasn't even up yet. It was still under construction. We were, again, their lab rabbits. To test the sound and all. I recall recording my vocals without a studio door! Imagine me in a studio, with my earphones, mic and no door! It was funny. But, what the hell. We continued. For Spastik Primat, you can hear my voice like a compressed doll. Thanks to the new technology of vocal recording without a door. No need autotuner synthesizer whatsoever.

As for the guitars and bass, we did it in Ajeep's room.

We were all working at that time. So, right after work, we'd meet up somewhere for dinner and head to Ajeep's. Sometimes we just meet there. Sometimes we didn't even meet. Recorded separately. Some of us would stay until 4am to listen and do some changes, helped out with the mixing and all. Sometimes we became so grumpy if we didn't get what we wanted, due to lack of sleep. Go home at 4am and wake up the next day for work.

Ajeep was very, very helpful. He even added some strings into our songs. He dragged us along with any event he did. Played a few gigs all because of him. We even did an opening for KKA. He even trusted us to replace them at the Laundry Bar, which we couldn't make it. Well, he thought of us, at least. I guess this is what you call a friend. Damn, I think I miss his temper. Hahaha.. Seriously, he is one garang fella.

Our mini album recording costed RM1k. Eat that people. You can't find a better deal than that! But don't expect him to charge this rate anymore. We were just test instruments. His mixing has improved tremendously immediately after our EP. Ours may sound off here and there. But it's better than nothing.

Neverends, is a more happy-tuned song, which I realised most girls like this track. The vocal layers I did was spontaneous, it was there and then I made it up. I thought it was boring at first during the initial recording because the key seemed a little bit low at the chorus. After the layers, it sounded better. I noticed during gigs, this song was not a hit, because people don't know that it has other colours to the song. Ajeep even added some keyboards. Another highlight of the song; instead of a guitar solo, I made Fyzal do a drum solo. I hope that made a difference. Well, that completed Neverends.

So, here's to my best friends! The people who are there when I need them. You know who you are. Heart and soul, I will grow old with all of you. Ameen...

Neverends
Song: Nan, Dibitz, Fyzal, Arab, Apek
Lyrics: Nan

Sekian lama telah kuredah
Dalam sejuta persoalan
Mencari jawapan dan pengertian

Apakah kepercayaan dan harapan
Perlu dilafazkan
Untuk membuktikan keikhlasan

Tapi kini kupasti
Tak perlu kucari lagi

**
Kini aku bersama
Mereka yang kupercaya
Untuk selamanya
Di sini akan aku
Hunuskan pedang perjuangan
Bersama mereka

Jauhkan diriku dari
Wajah penuh kepuraan
Jangan kau tambahkan kekusutan

Datanglah dengan hati
Yang berisikan keikhlasan
Aura pembawa kebahagiaan

Kini ku tak perlu lagi
Sembunyikan diri ini

End of Training

2010-04-15T10:21:00.003+08:00

I'm done with training. 2 weeks of hectic, cramped (my body), training.

If you ever pass by Nephro Dept at HUKM, you'll notice the department is now paperless (hopefully soon). We've implemented computerized data system for them. And that's what I've been training them, the nurses and the nephrologists, how to put their hands on them. So, if anyone's warded to that unit (touch wood) and they are not keying in data to their system, PLEASE LET ME KNOW! tu maksudnya gajah putih in the making. ngee..

I don't know why I didn't snap any pictures during the training. Now I have nothing to show off. Hahaha.. Maybe I'll snap during 'Go Live' session.

So if you need any system for your hospital or clinic, give me a buzz. (I'm talking as if all of you owns one!)

We have:
Lab Info System
Renal Info System
Blood Donor System
Hospital Info System
etc.

If you like my face, you should get one.

I'm just so happy the training is over. Now I can have fun fun fun! (Jumping Jack)

Yipeee yipeee yipeeee!!!!

Oh I have to call Skin... lama tak borak ngan dia. Jap lagi aku call ko yeee....

Friday I'm Bummed

2010-04-09T09:44:00.002+08:00

Kenapa la aku kena kerja hari Jumaat? Kan bagus kalau dapat cuti hari Jumaat, macam kat Kelantan semua tu. Boleh la dorang tumpukan perhatian masa Solat Jumaat. Hari Khamis half day. Ahad start kerja. Best... (Tapi jangan la hari cuti, alasan bangun lambat pastu tak pergi solat Jumaat.. hahahaha.... bese nih)

Tau tak kenapa hari Ahad cuti? Siapa yang tentukan cuti ni? --> note: to research

Sunday is a day where 'they' celebrate their SUN, that's why it's a day off. Apahal kita pulak nak kena sama-sama 'take a day off' pada hari sembahyang mereka? Dorang yang patut take a day off pada hari solat KITA! (semangat yang tegar)

(wth is tegar?)

Marilah kita sama-sama cuti pada hari Jumaat!!! hahahaha.....

Actually, I have no more mood to work today. Exhausted.

HUKM training Sessions 1 and 2 was a success! Next week, we'll continue Session 3.
I love my trainees. They're all very excited. Good job nurses!

Stuck In A Rut

2010-03-22T12:43:00.002+08:00

Because of this HUKM project in hand

I AM GOING CRAZY!

Just thinking about it makes me go insane.

I think I might create a second me, pretending I'm living in someone else's shoes. I hope to jump in a murderer's life. Like Dexter or something.

This is getting me nowhere.

Okay, I think I'm not okay.... I am not me. I think someone else is in my shoes, pushing me out.

Maybe it's Monday! Yea... that's it.

One Israel

2010-03-19T13:08:00.001+08:00

Eh eh... One Malaysia.

Kebetulan la pulak you... (sambil menepuk bahu member gaya sotong)

I HATE Lady Gaga

2010-03-18T13:23:00.004+08:00

You know I don't watch MTV, [V], E!, etc anymore. I'd avoid hitz.tv too if I had to. Thanks to my sis I sometimes get 'updates' from my enemies. haha. I love her, my sister. And thanks sis for making me cry on your previous entry on death. Demyuh.

I just believe that by watching these MTV witches my IQ may drop to a certain level and my level of defying them may be ramped down. Hahaha. But I know I'm still strong. InsyaAllah.

And also, I am really disgusted with open pussies and breasts. Watching pornography in solitary is something personal. But if it is mainstreamed and mass-produced in open daylight, that's totally immoral.

And how can you tell your daughter this is not normal? How could it be not normal mommy, when Lady Gaga and Beyonce are wearing it?

Sebab dorang tu bukan manusia, tu setan berputetkan binatang. Binatang takyah pakai baju.

But it's not merely about their dressing, really. It's more of an open mantra these witches are chanting and casting. Broadcasted to our dear youngsters. Brainwashing. Poisoning. Straight in the face, and you think it's alright, cool, trend, open-minded, fashionable, hip, in, modern, glamourous, daring, women-power.. (audio fades)

I hate this. I hate it when they spit at our faces, and we deliberately swallow them. Not we. You.

You: It's normal la, Dib. You're not normal.
Me: Yea. I'm not normal, but I'm right. (sambil jelir lidah and berambus sebelum perang mulut berlaku)

Garaa Band - Ganbatte! Live @ KL Jam Asia

2010-03-16T10:52:00.002+08:00

Ganbatte! Translate: Good Luck! Selamat Berjaya! Vannakum! (ok ni aku tipu)

Ganbatte was the 2nd original song that was given to me. This song was easier because it did not have any original vocals in it. Kira macam minus-1 la ni. Baru la lazat aku nak dengar, tak cam Spastik Primat, spastik aku nak kena kerah otak overlap suara vocal orang lama. Tapi Ganbatte... memang ganbatte la otak aku.

I listened to them practised a few times, to get to know the song better. And so, during the same time we went to Subang to compose Spastik Primat, dalam masa 0.0005 saat Ganbatte pun siap. Dulu, sebelum aku join dorang, dorang kata nak mintak kawan-kawan dorang rap-rap sikit dalam tu. Apa jadi aku tak tau la. Terputus di tengah jalan plan tu. Disebabkan tajuk lagu Jepun, ingatkan nak selit-selit bahasa Jepun pulak. Yang ni pun ke laut jugak. Maybe this version was enough. Anyway, Ganbatte always hypes the crowd. I think it's because the guitar riffs are catchy, and the drumming is the best. (Puji band sendiri).

If you listen to the original Ganbatte, it is more of a rapcore feel. Maybe that's why they thought of including some rapping or something. But as it goes, Ganbatte has softened a little to suit the melody.

Teringat masa ni, kitorang pun sibuk nak buat sesi penggambaran. Band pictures la, boleh upload kat Myspace (dulu takde Facebook lagi). Aku punya la excited sebab boleh shopping baju baru untuk merealisasikan watak la kononnya. Konsep masa tu ala-ala anime Jepun la. Nama pun Garaa la kan. Garaa as in the character Garaa in Naruto. Siap buat research tau macamana nak bergambar. Pandang arah matahari la. Sudut tepi la. Korang ni memang semangat la.

Pagi-pagi Sabtu aku dah message bandmate suruh jumpa kat Sg Wang, nak shopping sama-sama. Jumpa la Fyzal and Apek. Rajin betul dorang layan karenah aku beli baju. Kasut lagi. Aku rasa masa tu aku ni cam adik manja la, paling muda la katakan. Tak tau lagi tu perangai bossy aku belum sampai lagi. Heh heh. Satu-satu baju aku cuba. Shoes the worst la coz my feet can't seem to find a perfect fit.

When it was shooting time, we went to Ulu Yam. Ada satu tasik besar yang aku tak tau wujud sebelum ni. Ha masa ni la tau perangai masing-masing suka melawa jugak rupanya. Arab dengan topi koboi dia. Nan dengan sweater jepun dan AllStar dia. Apek pun beli sweater Adidas baru. Fyzal dengan kasut kesayangan Nike. OooOOooOo... more vain than me, okayyy... Tapi yang kelakarnya, sweater di tengah-tengah panas! Takpe, biarlah badan macam kena microwave and sauna, gaya tetap kena ada. Dalam gambar sumpah orang ingat kita kat luar negara, spring time! Okay I exagerated again. Nyettt..

Okay enjoy the song. Lirik sebenarnya laaagi panjang, aku dah potong-potong banyak hasil nukilan Nan. Sorry hehe. Tersasul-sasul gak la nyanyi lagu ni masa awal-awal jamming. Sendiri gubah, sendiri tanggung laa..

Ganbatte!
Song: Arab, Dibitz, Nanzo, Fyzal, Apek
Lyrics: Nanzo

Jauh sudah kumelangkah
Segala dah kuredah
Biar pun kuparah
Tetap kuteguhkan langkah

Jatuhku bukanlah bermakna
Tamatnya perjalanan
Setiap kejayaan
Bermula dengan kegagalan

***
Kan kuusaha
Mengejar segala
Impian lama
Yang terkubur di dada
Realisasikan semua khayalan
Jadikan kenyataan

*
Oohh setiap kota tak dibina sekelip mata
Oohh kejayaan itu satu kebahagiaan

**
Biar apapun ribut yang datang
Akan kurempuh semua halangan
Biarpun kau kata itu sia-sia
Akan kupaksa kau telan segala kata

Terkubur di dada
Realisasikan semua khayalan
Jadikan kenyataan

10 Things I Hate (Box-OFFICE)

2010-03-09T13:45:00.006+08:00

1. Anyone touching/taking my things and not returning it
2. Telling me over and over again
3. Giving me tasks that is not related to me
4. Rearranging my things - nak kena penampar ke?
5. Talking to me while I'm doing something
6. Asking stupid questions
7. Buat-buat kelam kabut banyak kerja bila big boss datang - don't act poyo la
8. Emailing and re-emailing the same thing to me
9. Weekend calls
10. Depending too much on me

Urban Rituals

2010-02-25T12:59:00.006+08:00

Rituals, we normally imagine them to be in a jungle, voodoo style, hungga-hungga here, hungga-hungga there.

Rituals, can be done anywhere. Asalkan cukup syarat peralatan dan tatacara.

Believe me when I say rituals can be done on stage (concerts) and acting (movies). Acting as in not just pretend to do it, but doing it for real and presented to hungga-hungga audience through the silver screen. We are the hungga-hungga audience.

Why do they have to do it with us watching it? This is what they call energy. Lagi ramai orang, lagi besar aura tu la kiranya. True or not, wallahualam. Yang aku tau, aku takkan tengok tv or konsert terlalu khusyuk lagi. They ain't taking my energy... iyo iyo je teori aku.

Kalau percakapan kita adalah doa, apa yang dorang cakapkan juga adalah doa. What they say during stage act or singing are also prayers/cite. Cth la, kalau suami isteri berlakon babak cerai dan suami lafazkan "aku ceraikan kau (isteri) talak 3", kau rasa sah tak? Sah? Sah? Aku belajar dulu, katanya sah. Kalau tak betul, ustaz aku salah. Tapi aku rasa dia tak salah.

So, jangan la ambil ringan kalau diperkatakan perbuatan-perbuatan atas pentas/tv/wayang itu satu per"sembah"an. Kalau kita faham ritual dorang (the devil in particular), maka kau juga akan melompat bersama-sama aku mengutuk "wtf?".

Sekian.

Pretend Smarty Pants

2010-02-25T09:58:00.004+08:00

Aku bengang betul la bila orang tu tak tau tapi dia cakap macam dia tau. Pastu nak convince orang yang memang dah tau dengan ketaktauannya itu. Kalau tak tau atau tak pasti, jangan la berlagak macam tau semua benda.

Older doesn't make you wiser, though it should, but it DOESN'T! Now you look dumb! Assssssssssssssssssssssssss-hole.

Hate List

2010-02-23T15:47:00.002+08:00

Do you have a hate list?
I do. Some temporary. Some for life.

Perasaan benci yang meluap-luap.

Kadang-kadang terlintas dalam kepala hotak, terus potong mood satu hari. hahaha... (audio gelak bergema)

I Want To Break Free

2010-02-09T15:54:00.004+08:00

Bila la agaknya aku takyah keje lagi????? Aku nak buat macam-macam. Niaga ke. Lepak ke. Shopping ke. Main-main dengan Humairah ke. Swimming ke. Jogging ke.

Tapi aku nak niaga. Nak niaga apa, gua pun tak tau lagi... hahaha... Most probably jumpstart my-kawaii.com. Maybe catering. Maybe teach in some tuition center. Something that I can enjoy.

Perempuan tak sepatutnya kerja la. Bertuah betul minah-minah arab, duduk rumah, shopping, makan sampai gemuk. Ini tak. Kerja mengalahkan lelaki. Feminisma apajadah, memakan diri sendiri je. Tak suka ke lepak aje kat rumah, tunggu laki bagi duit poket tiap-tiap bulan? Best apa.... hihihi aku suka.

Disebabkan perempuan pekerja yang disiplin dan berkaliber, peluang pekerjaan lelaki menjadi tipis. Ada kerja kosong admin untuk lelaki? Macam takde aje. Ada kot... tapi macam takde la. Ha, part tu aje dah beribu-ribu peluang bekerja sebagai admin adalah untuk perempuan sahaja (roughly speaking la).

Entah la labu.. pandai sangat orang buat sistem bangang ni. Pandai cam haram. Feminisme my arse.

The reward for being a dedicated full time housewife is far much greater.... Insyaallahhh........

Menunggu Khalifah Cinta

2010-02-02T12:39:00.003+08:00

Apa itu khalifah cinta?

Sometimes occupying my mind is the best way to forget. I'll just take as much as they can throw and throw it all away.

Jadi apa itu khalifah cinta?

And sometimes too many negative environments affect your daily activities.

Khalifah Cinta is an abandoned project I wish to continue. And something I wish to learn about.

Google google google...

Projekt AK @ Lim Kok Wing 2010

2010-01-27T12:09:00.003+08:00

(gambar EP lama)

I heard that Projekt AK will be performing at Lim Kok Wing on the 10th Feb 2010. Details, I'll get it soon...

See you there!

Once Upon A Time

2010-01-26T14:41:00.005+08:00

Hehehehehehheheeeeeee......... . . .... . .

Ni tahun 2004 kot?

Bila? Mana? Apa? Seriously I cannot remember when was this taken.

Skin, rambut ko mmg da bomb hahahaha...
Biq, time ni bleh la nak tayang perut kempis, lengan nipis...

AJL24 is a Ritual?

2010-01-25T11:48:00.009+08:00

Ha baru tau? Aku dah cakap dah. Lepas ni jangan la buat lagi.

Read newspaper article here.

Tajuk akhbar cam sial kan? AJL 24 unsur illuminati?
Buat-buat tanya pulak, last year's theme for AJL23 was Iluminasi. Duh. Korek la balik arkib.

Patu kalau nak kata kebetulan... banyak sangat bhaiiii.... checkered floor, logo, lady in read, black & white theme, pyramids, etc.
Takde maknanya kebetulan. Semua ada sebab.

Okay untuk kalian yang mengfollow, find more on "energy". Tgh banyak kerja ni, tak sempat nak blog.

Blah.

Garaa Band - Spastik Primat Live @ KL JAM ASIA

2010-01-22T17:24:00.002+08:00

Haish… Spastik Primat. This song really gives me the creeps every time I sing. Tu la, pandai sangat buat melodi, sendiri takleh sampai key. Ni masa nyanyi kat gig aku dah tukar melodi chorus dia. Sepatutnya lain, tapi sebab tak sampai key terpaksa la ubah. Nak dengar original, silalah ke www.myspace.com/garaaband

Anyway, this was the very first song that was passed to me to compose the melody. Yeap, I was the last to join the band. Before me was a male singer. Kawan-kawan jugak. Tapi mamat tu ada hal lain, jadi dorang cari vokalis lain, seorang gadis yang comel iaitu aku.

Masa aku dengar lagu ni dalam bentuk mp3 jamming low kualiti, ada bekas vokalis punya suara. Aku tak berkenan sangat melodi dia. Dengan persetujuan ramai, maka kitorang berkumpul di rumah kawan kitorang di Subang dan bermulalah penciptaan lagu yang sangat ‘best’ ni. Aku ingat lagi, nak pergi ke Subang dari Gombak and Cheras bukan main ‘dekat’ lagi. Dengan Fyzal yang bawak kereta cam kura-kura kiut, ada gak la sejam nak sampai. Rasa macam dah sampai PD je masa tu, sampai-sampai rasa malas tu pun ada gak la datang-datang. Tapi kena kental masa tu. Dah la budak-budak tu aku baru kenal. Yang paling aku kenal pun Fyzal masa tu, yang tak pernah cakap dengan aku sejak dia bergeng-geng ngan adik aku and kawan-kawan aku yang lain 10 tahun sebelum tu. Kitorang tak pernah bercakap depan-depan. YM dan SMS je. Kalau bertemu macam takde mulut dua-dua. Pandang pun taknak. Terima kasihlah kepada teknologi internet. Buat orang tak reti bergaul. Yang lain-lain tu, aku baru kenal masa tu, tapi berborak macam dah kenal lama. Bagus la, takde la aku rasa kekok. Fyzal sorang je buat aku kekok.

Me: Arab, kawan kau tu memang bawak keta cam siput ke?
Arab: A ah dia tu memang. Sangat sopan. Lemah lembut orangnya.

Hotak kau la Arab.

Back to the story, so we started composing. Arab tukang strumming, aku tukang buat melodi, Nan tukang menangkap melodi yang nak tersasar keluar dari jalan, Fyzal kitorang punya Quality Control…. Hehehe… Apek, serius aku lupa dia buat apa masa tu. Tapi aku ingat dia gelak kuat la. Terus mata sepet. Pasal tu nama dia Apek.

I used to compose songs on my own, but went unreleased and unheard. You can listen to it if you come to my house, I can play it on my piano. Tapi dah karat la jari-jariku. Lama betul tak tekan kekunci piano itu. So, after a long pause in composing, Garaa Band gave me a chance to prove that I do have some shitty talent inside of me. And because I was so eager to prove myself, I gave all I had in creating Spastik Primat. I thank Nan for the beautiful lyrics. I can’t write any better than that. Something all of us who are driven by this fake system can relate to.

And so, here it is. Our very first song. It’s more about the song, not my voice, people. (eceh)

Spastik Primat
Song: Arab, Dibitz, Nanzo, Fyzal, Apek
Lyrics: Nanzo

Langkah megah meludah
Segala di depannya
Membesarkan pingat
Yang sementara

Segala ingin kau miliki
Yang lemah kau tak peduli
Hitam hati

Kau rasa kau tinggi
Kau megah berdiri
Apakah kau pasti
Dirimu akan kekal abadi

**
Mengapa membezakan antara kita semua
Kita manusia asalnya (daripada) cahaya sama
Diperdayakan dunia

Kita dijadikan bukan untuk dibezakan
Mengertilah

Rik Clay

2010-01-22T10:30:00.006+08:00

Yea, for you paranoid people out there (welcome), you should google Rik Clay.

He was a conspiracy theorist (yes, WAS) who researched much on symbolism and synchromysticism, etc. Very deep in fact, until his blog The Cosmic Mind was shut down. And weeks later died, officially reported that he died from adrenal breakdown. Which many don't believe that he took his own life. Because he sounded very energetic during a radio interview. Well, I don't believe he took his own life. I can't accept the numbers of many young deaths, doesn't matter if it was of overdose or what-not, it just all happened in a sudden. Like it was planned.......... ooooeerrr....

Tanda kiamat kot, berita kematian yang tak disangka. (betul ke ayat aku)

Anyway, go ahead and google. Push away the facts on his death, but crawl your way back on his research. There are some fans/friends who backed his blog. Go find. Really mind blowing. Bak kata Ris Low.... BOOMS!!!

note: be careful of what you read. iman kasi kental sket.

---
Currently listening to Letter To Elise - The Cure. No matter how many million times I listen to it, it just... just..... makes me all mushy and arghh.......... somebody stab me now!

RL4

2010-01-21T14:35:00.003+08:00

THANK GOD JD IS OUT!!!

-end of blog-

Happy Birthday Baby Humairah!

2010-01-19T11:14:00.005+08:00

Last Sunday was my little angel's birthday. Had a small gathering cum tea party which dragged until 2 am! What a great weekend, with my bestfriends and family!

Started off late, because the previous night we hung out with Deb and Nan until 3.30 am at Sri Petaling. Ha amik kau, nak remaja sangat kan? Esoknya semua bangun kul 2 petang. Aku sorang je la bangun kul 10 pagi, sebab Myra yang kejutkan.

Pukul 2 petang baru terhegeh nak pergi beli barang. Boleh pulak orang shopping Raya Cina pulak kan. So it took me 1 1/2 hours to just buy drinks, chicken drummets, bread, eggs, cheese, paper cups and plates. Gile kejam lamanya.

Luckily Deb and Nan agreed to come early, to watch over Myra while I did the preparations. Deb helped out with the drummets. I did the special sandwiches. My mom prepared the bihun goreng from her place. Fara sponsored the jelly drinks. Biq brought over the chocolate cake. Yummy to all! Licin okayyy.....!!

And so my beloved guests arrived with smiles on their faces. Nan, Deb, Zamani, Fara, Aisha, Skin, Hasrul, Sami, Biq, Sharul, Elly, Arab and my dad. My mom decided not to come because she was too exhausted with the bihun. Haha.. okay next time spaghetti. Easier.

It was great Nan brought his PS2, ours is broken. So the guys could have their fun while the girls with their gossips! Haha.. It went on until 2 am. Myra slept at 11pm, thank God.

Thanks to all for coming and helping out. Thanks for the gifts too although I did not expect any. Maybe only from Biq because I know she cannot stop shopping. Peace!

Humairah, you are already 1 year old. I'm just speechless. I love you with all my heart and I wish I could spend more time with you. I wish you happiness, love, wealth and health. I won't fuss on what you want to be when you grow up, just as long as you make me proud. (Though I have a list of no-nos okay... hehehe..)

Mama & Papa love you 'til the end of time...

Pic credits to Biq

Garaa Band - Timurlistiwa @ KL Jam Asia

2010-01-12T11:34:00.003+08:00

This call song sing song sall cong... enjoys.

Aku ingat lagi, lagu ni paling susah nak buat sebab aku tak dapat nak feel chording dia. Susah ke apa aku tak tau la. Mungkin tak dapat rokok gulung perisa vanilla kot masa tu. Anyway, we did this song at our friend's friend's house. Serious aku tak kenal sangat mamat tu, tapi dia cukup baik hati bagi kunci rumah supaya kitorang boleh siapkan lagu ni. Sorry, tiada maksiat berlaku. Aku macam nak mati bina melodi dengan Arab men'strumming'kan melodi indah itu, dah hampir terbalikkan meja dah aku masa tu, akhirnya Nanzo datang setelah berejam kitorang tunggu dengan jajan-jajan diorang tu, maka kita berjaya bergabung tenaga menghasilkan melodi yang pelik ini.

Timurlistiwa, one of my fav during jamming. I would love to make it my blog theme... huhuuu...

Timurlistwa
Song: Arab, Dibitz, Nanzo, Fyzal, Apek
Lyrics: Nanzo

Apa yang ada di sana?
Syurga dunia kepalsuan semata
Segala media tercipta
Bagi mereka yang mudah terlupa

*
Jangan kau ikutkan hatimu yang buta
Jiwa tercalar
Jangan kau biarkan dirimu diperdaya
Harapan dusta

**
Walau mana jauh kau mengembara
Kau sedarlah
Sinaran dan kebenaran kau cari
Ada di sini

Selamilah diri sendiri
Asia asalmu yang paling sejati
Tetapkan tapakmu berdiri
Ribut barat pasti 'kan kita takluki

Nota: Kitorang ada EP ye... nak order aku bleh sign. hahahaaaaaa...

Thank you to all of our supporters. Especially yang jerit paling kuat dalam gig ni. hahaha...

Disinformation Agents

2010-01-11T14:17:00.005+08:00

Despite me promoting against the Illuminati, Freemasons, etc and told people to do their reseach, let me advice that there are Disinformation Agents out there, ya?

People like Alex Jones and David Icke are hired agents to divert our view from the truth. Ini contoh la. Ada ramai lagi.

You see, I don't need to dig in too deep to know what is going on. I only need to know the basics. Who, what, where, how, why, when?

When I said go do your research, please study what's enough to understand what's going on around us. Tolong la jangan korek dalam sangat sampai kita sendiri tak kuat iman, akhirnya kita pula yang kecundang, jadi gila tak tentu hala, paranoid tak tentu pasal, sembahyang tetap tak buat, kan?

Kalau minat, silakanlah. Takde siapa yang halang. Tapi bila hati kita pun gundah gulana, dari faham terus jadi tak faham. Ada yang dah faham apa itu dajjal, tiba-tiba dia pulak bersetuju dengan Big Bag Theory. Apa kes? Kau daripada golongan terselamat tetiba jadi golongan sesat nak mampus. Jangan...

To me, I don't know much (Illuminati). I don't want to know much. I know what's enough for me to look around and point out what is right and what is wrong. I don't need to memorize George Bush's great grand jokong's name to know the roots of these agendas. I don't need to read deeply about the reptillian conspiracies. I don't need to entirely know the rituals of entering the Freemason. But I know. And when you know, you know it is happening right in front of you.

I might as well memorize the 25 Rasul. Might as well read about Nabi Adam. Kau tau, aku baca kisah Nabi Adam, boleh menangis tau? Belum baca pasal kisah Nabi Muhammad (saw) lagi tu! Hehehe... ye aku baru nak baca. Dulu baca macam baca buku kanak-kanak. Ini dah besar panjang, baca la dengan pemahaman duniawi kita sekarang.

So, why read about our enemies? Kan lebih baik baca pasal nabi-nabi kita, agama kita.

Recap: Be careful when you do your research. Bukan semua kat internet tu betul. Ada yang sengaja buat macam betul tapi sebenarnya untuk lebih menyesatkan kita.

How do they work? Kalau kau perasan la mana-mana superstar, artist, selebriti, asalnya baik, prihatin, lemah lembik, tapi cergas memberi semangat supaya kita terus maju. Pastu lama-lama diorang akan keluarkan teori atau ajaran yang kononnya masuk akal dan betul. Ha.. jaga-jaga.

Contoh la macam Oprah (ha jangan terkezut). Baik, kan? Charity here and there. Tapi tau tak dia ada Church of Oprah? Amende Church of Oprah??? Amende??? Anything with the word NEW is not new to me and ONE is not one to me. New world, new earth. One world, One nation. You go search.

Aku tengok Oprah jugak la, bukan tak tengok terus. Saja up to date (konon haha). Layan nyampah kot.

Ok la. Blah.

Rimas

2010-01-11T00:07:00.003+08:00

Aku rimas la tengok AJL-24.
Semalam aku rimas tengok Indie Yeh Yeh. Sebab yang produce citer tu tak layak buat citer tu.

AJL-24.
What's with the checkered floor, black and white theme, stupid choreographed crowd...?

Takyah cakap la tapi aku dah agak dah kalau tak AF punya anak murid menang, AF punya anak murid juga menang. Yang selain daripada tu semua rencahan tepian aje. Macamana lagu macam tu boleh menang? Kalau betul sedap sangat la kan, and ramai peminat, tentu lepas final performance dia tu mendapat tepukan encore paling gemuruh, tapi sunyi je aku tengok. Orang berpusu keluar ada la. Ok fine whatever.

Yang kumpulan Search punya logo, aku tau la dari dulu logo korang dari dulu macam tu rupanya, mata dajjal tak hengat punya. Kot la dulu zaman jahiliah korang main tarohhhh aje. Tapi ini zaman sudah jauh kedepan. Takkan tak tau lagi mata satu dajal, tambah lagi lambang segitiga tu, bukan main lazat lagi terpampang kat skrin. Makin lama makin besar liplap nye. Korang pengikut ke apa? Bodoh ke buat-buat bodoh. Takde nye kebetulan. Samada tau atau buat-buat tak tau. Atau bodoh.

Sama kes la dengan gomen-gomen body ni. Semua logo dah tukar segitiga. Apsal? Apsal? Bodoh ke buat-buat bodoh?

Rimas.

Birthdays & Resolutions

2009-12-30T10:47:00.003+08:00

My birthday is near. Which reminds me I'm getting younger and more adorable (not). January is a big month for me... the pokai month, hahaha. My dad, my sis and my daughter's birthdays are in January too. So, few hundreds there, few hundreds here.. but it will be worth it. To see the smiles on their faces when we spend so much moolahs on ourselves. Once a year maaa... won't hurt much. Lagipun, tengah masyuk ni boleh la. Kalau aku tengah pokai aku cakap awal-awal.

And new year's resolution too.

A big month for us all.

My wishlist:

1. gold (kawan-kawan sekalian, marilah beli emas kerana duit akan pupus)
2. new wardrobe (baju aku sekarang macam makcik-makcik!! tolonggg!!!)
3. shoes (seriously I only wear sandals everywhere i go. dah lunyai pulak tu...)
4. make up
5. body massage spa (adeh.. I can't find the TIME!)
6. genting theme park tickets
7. persian carpet (haha)
8. 3D movie tickets

New Year's Resolution:

1. to find a fast way to clear my credit cards
2. lose weight
3. do as many crazy things before my bones can't take it
4. persian carpet (?)
5. to look 5 years younger through good diet and skincare (baru lepas makan roti canai.. haha.. takpe.. tinggal berapa hari lagi 2010)
6. to *kill (literally or not hahahaha) my singaporean principals

*note: shall the mentioned person dies, I swear I am not involved, you dry wit bastards.. hahahaha.... have a great new year!

the Case of the Exes

2009-12-23T16:28:00.003+08:00

Hoi lamanyaaaaaaaa aku tak blog. Sori la sebab baru tukar keje baru, asyik tak lekat kat opis, jumpa client, jumpa client, jumpa client. Hari ni aku dok opis sebab bos meraikan Hari Natal di Langkawi. Bos yang paling besar pulak dah nak terbang ke Amerika Syarikat lahabau untuk melihat anaknya masuk kolej.

Anyway, I don't really feel like blogging. Because I came accross this funny blogger and I couldn't stop reading his blog.

My topic today (actually it was last week's topic, just couldn't find the time to write) is....

Have you ever come across your boyfriend/girlfriend's exes, and she/he behaves all oh-I-know-your-bf/gf-so-well? Kadang-kadang meluat gak la. Ye la, kita tau la kau pernah bercinta dengan dia. But that doesn't mean I know less than you? Lain la dulu korang dua pernah bunuh sape-sape patu tak bagitau dunia, ok la. Tapi dari segi perangai, isi hati, perasaan semua tu... aku yakin aku lagi pandai. Kalau kau nak cerita dulu, kau cerita la kat dinding. Sekarang ni, dia bukan lagi milikmu.

Memang kita pernah berbestfriend dengan seseorang. Aku pun pernah ada bestfriend lelaki. Semua benda kita redah sama-sama. Aku tau perangai buruk dia, dia pun tau perangai buruk aku. Tapi bila dia dah kahwin, aku sikit pun tak kacau dah. Tak call, tak ym, tak sms, dan sebagainya. Bukan apa, aku pun dah kahwin. Kena la jaga peribadi. Kita ni bukan mat salleh atau yahudi toktok; dah kahwin pun boleh bersosial macam tak kahwin lagi. Kita ada adab. Kita ada agama. Kita ada batas. Most importantly, orang tu milik orang lain. Sah-sah kita takde apa-apa ikatan dengan dia. Takde HAK apa-apa kat dia. Jadi, jangan la nak sibuk memperbetulkan peribadi kepunyaan orang sebab kau takkan dapat apa-apa pahala pun kalau kau nak memperbetulkan cara hidup dia. Dapat dosa ada la. Kacau rumahtangga.

Ye, aku tau. Mungkin persahabatan tu boleh menjangkau 10 tahun atau lebih. Tapi, tanya la diri sendiri, kau suka ke laki/bini kau rapat-rapat lagi ngan bestfriend dia? Tak kan?? Kalau kau tak kisah, takpe la. Tengok laki kau lunch dengan bestfriend perempuan dia tiap-tiap hari kat ofis. Tengok bini kau shopping dengan bestfriend laki dia. Very open-minded. Sorry, I am not one of them. Kalau kena kat aku, aku lempang aje siapa-siapa yang lalu depan aku, sebelum menerajang meja kerusi pastu simbah air kat mereka yang berkelakuan tak senonoh tu. Hehehe... garang kan? Cak!

Anyway, jangan la disoalkan kenapa ini tak boleh, kenapa itu tak boleh. Memang tak boleh. Jangan tanya banyak-banyak. Kalau nak boleh, pegi duduk Australia ke Amerika ke.. kat sana moden.

But the fact is, sana pun sama, ye. Mana-mana pun sama.

Sekian, rapu-rapu untuk hari ini.

Hukum Hudud

2009-11-30T10:30:00.004+08:00

I was thinking of Hukum Hudud last Wednesday but wasn’t able to write it down to share. I studied a little Syariah Islam for one semester and it did leave me with much knowledge on Hukum Islam and how I suddenly turned from Human Law to Islam Law. It is so simple and fair. I wonder why it is not implemented here in Malaysia, where we call ourselves a Muslim country. Allah’s law is suitable everywhere, don’t you think? No, don’t think. How could we ever question that?

Yeah so we live in a mixed community. What does that have to do anything with Islam Law? I’m no pro here, but it is only fair if we say that the law should be put upon us Muslim only? Seriously, it’s not that bad. In fact, it is much difficult to sentence any wrong doers, if you study the principles.

Let me share what I’ve learned before, I’m sure you would agree with me. Most of the sites helped a lot in explaining, but for complete understanding, read all of these three:

1) Menyeluruh - http://tayibah.com/eIslam/jenayah_Islam.htm
2) Syarat saksi hudud zina dan qazaf - http://www.sahabatrimba.com/forum/phpBB3/viewtopic.php?f=13&t=26
3) Cara sebat - http://epondok.wordpress.com/2009/05/29/pengenalan-hukum-hudud/

Nak lagi tepat, boleh la cari sendiri ye? Belajar kat orang yang lebih tau. Aku pun bukannya pandai sangat. Ada yang ingat ada yang lupa. Tapi topik ni masa belajar memang feberet!!

Okay. Sambil-sambil tu nak cerita la pengalaman buat presentation tentang topik Hudud Zina la nih. Aku siap pakai tudung labuh ye, jangan jeles. Habis je presentation, bermulalah sesi soal-jawab (more like sesi sial-jawab la..)

Ni la soalan-soalan "bernas" yang ditanyakan oleh rakan sekelas.
1) Kalau isteri dirogol suami macam mana?
2) Kalau isteri diliwat suami macam mana?
3) Kalau suami dirogol isteri macam mana?
4) Kalau seorang lelaki melepaskan nafsu kat kambing macam mana?

OKAY NOMBOR 4 TU MELAMPAU LA KANNN... CAN YOU BELIEVE THESE BOYS I HAD TO FACE!!! hahahahahaha.... Keluar dari kelas aje kena maki dengan aku! Korang nak aku fail ke? Hahahaha... Badigol. But they're all my buddies, they just like to fool around.

If you're curious for the answers above, question 1-3: kes-kes ini boleh la dibawa ke mahkamah dan biar hakim mengadilinya. Because it doesn't fall under the Hudud Law.

And for question 4 (I still can't believe they asked this question. Teringin ke woi? haha), my ustaz said the man shall be brought to court for judgement since it is not under the Hudud law, and the goat (poor thing) shall be set free.

Betul ke salah ke, wallahualam... you tell me.

Sekian sahaja lawak hari ini. (not laughing)

Black Eyed Peas - Meet Me Halfway

2009-11-26T11:45:00.006+08:00

This latest single is so influenced. I don't need an interpreter to tell me that the lyrics are SO NOT FOR A LOVER, but to their "god" (small G to show I ain't worshiping it). In this case, their god = Lucifer, Dajjal (capitals because it's the far end BIG DEMON! haha).

Don't believe me? Go see for yourselves. If you already know the symbolism, how they pay homage, etc. you will agree with me. If you don't, please go do your study before you criticize me.

Kenapa beriya-iya dorang ni? Lady Gaga with her gore acts, Rihanna with revealing suits better off not wearing a string, Beyonce (sorry gals) with her 'ritual' dances (ugly but unable to take your eyes off her bouncy assets (see movie "Metropolis 1927", exactly the same dance), Madonna with her "I-so-know-this-whole-Kabbalah-thing-and-I-gather-all-off-you-at-my-ritual-concerts" and her "downlines", Jay-Z, Kanye and all those puppets. I'm sure you must have one of your favourites mentioned and you must be cursing me. Well, BEP was my favourite, and I'm now squatting down thinking why them? (*cries*)

They are influential. All of them are used, paid, blackmailed, or voluntarily are part of it to simply meant to spread these teachings or to blind us and mesmerize us with their antics, so that we will be... absorbed? influenced? (damn my vocab-brain is really not functioning) MENGHASUT DAN MENGALIH PANDANGAN KITA DARIPADA KEBENARAN. Haa aku nak cakap tu..

And...... I think they want us to believe (or simply they themselves believe) that the Stargate will open soon, hence, thus, therefore, alas Lucifer will emerge from it and doom us all. Shall I say all the propaganda, including music and movies and politics are narrowed down to this sole purpose. The beginning of The End (sounds like BEP's latest album, ya?). Music, I don't have to mention because it has long poisoned our minds with sex and worships. Movies too as you can see now is the "trend" of the apocalypse as shown in the movie 2012, Transformers, Surrogates, District 9 and all. Don't they all seemed kinda similar? Hancur sana, musnah sini, dunia dah terbalik.

This is my opinion. Actually, it's not mine only. I have thousands who say the same, and I can have them nodding to my statements.

At least, don't be ignorant about these propaganda. I didn't say don't watch. Just don't watch blindly. I've watched most of the movies. I also listen to those songs. But I won't let it embed in my head. I won't gag or be in awe either.

Sometimes we idolize our favourite artists too much we forget that the word IDOL also means WORSHIP. You know better than me on this matter, right? Bah, I have my own favourite artists too. I'm just lucky I don't go head over heels with any of them.

Out of point there. Anyway, there's my 2 cents.

Ignorance may be bliss, but little knowledge is a dangerous thing too.
Very dangerous.

p/s: To whom it may concern, if you're still annoyed with me.. I've already forgiven you. (pergh.. sure api lagi) Minumlah Tricajus utk keharmonian hidup. Peace out! :p

p/s lagi: Found peace after E!, MTV, Channel V, etc were taken out from my subscription. Including the E!, MTV, Channel V, etc in my FB.. hahaaa.. you should do the same.

Aku tak faham laa..

2009-11-20T15:16:00.005+08:00

Woops.. let me rephrase that.

Aku faham sangat la kenapa korang berperangai cam sial terhadap aku ngan suami aku. Sebab korang takde 'LIFE'! bah-LOL bin to-LOL.

Sometimes I wonder, do they know that they disrespect me too when they find fault with my better half? Ataupun memang dorang pun sama-sama tak suka aku? Maybe la. Kalau betul, tolong la berambus dari hidup aku sebab takde apa-apa faedah pun kawan dengan aku. Buat menyemak mata je.

Listen. If he is in the right or wrong, I will always be by his side, hand in hand bashing up anyone against him, like a great tag team. To make things better, I will go overboard in making each of them look even bad by making stupid stories just to spice things up so our jokes will be better. Dah la info dorang dapat salah. I tak tau la, dorang ni bodoh sangat or takde keje sangat. As for us, yeah, once in a while we like to say that your tits are like papayas and ass as flat as an ironing board. tsk. But then, we'd continue our badminton session, gym session, jamming session, weightlifting session, info-on-the-enemy session (dajjal la, not them), tomoi session, teh tarik session, boxing session, cooking session, diving session, hiking session, skateboarding session, and any other session that doesn't involve them. So please, have all the fun mocking us, we could use some pahala. Kitorang ada dosa gak. Well at least aku ngaku, tak cam dorang... perfect.

I kinda feel 'rockstar'-ish when I knew they can't stop talking about us. Band ke laut tapi sensasi meletop. Sweet! And I feel kinda sad knowing they have nothing more important to yack about.

I don't care about them, really. They're jokers with yesterday's news, news from Fox, always with misguided info. It's just this one person that bugs me all the time. Apa aje dia buat, memang aku selalu terasa and sakit hati. Why? Entah, sebab dia bangang sangat kot? Or just plain bodoh. Or ego. Or perasan bagus. Or hypocrite. Or misguided! Tu la, perasan bagus sampai dia syak wasangka.

I do care... but...

I guess I don't really care lah. Haha...

Bottom line:
You don't like him, I don't like YOU.
Even if you're my MOTHER.

You know, I can write down who hates who in any of the 'clans' or 'besties'. I know who talks about who, who does what to who, who wants to copy who, who wants to steal who, who loves who, and all those silly stuff. But do I talk about it? Come on! My brain just refuse to compute. Plus they're all BFFs now, aku tanak jadi batu api.

Well, okay. Go ahead, continue with your gossips. And this time don't let me know about it.

Tu la Fara cakap, nasib baik dia tak ramai kawan.
I tak ramai kawan, Nabi suh carik 10 sahabat. I ada sebelah tangan aje. Lagi sebelah tak tau nak cari mana. Yang lain-lain tu, Acquaintances. Rasanya dorang salah faham erti 'kawan'. Sebab kawan takkan buat aku camni. Ko patut label diri 'lawan'.

Laki aku pun tak suka berkawan. Yang dorang nak kawan sangat ngan dia pun aku taktau kenapa. Kenapa? Tak payah lah kawan ngan kitorang. Kitorang jahat. Delete je no hp kitorang, FB kitorang, Myspace kitorang, and semua benda-benda yang menyesatkan tu. (hehe aku pun main gak FB/Myspace tu, tapi kitorang jahat takpe. Korang baik.)

"Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
And never brought to mind?"
-Yes!! yes!!

Kenapa taknak percaya?

2009-11-17T11:37:00.006+08:00

Why are we so reluctant to accept these Conspiracy Theories, Islamic Law, Theories on Dajjal? Why won't you people listen?

Now I know why...

My translation, from the arrivals:

1) Dari pandangan psikologi, informasi susah untuk diterima lantas menolak info itu dan mereka meneruskan cara hidup seperti biasa.
Otak kita mengenal info itu dan cuba untuk mengubah dan memprogram semula beberapa info yang telah terpahat untuk beberapa tahun dan otak akan cuba melawan, kerana ini memerlukan usaha mental yang tinggi, dan cara terbaik untuk mengelak usaha ini adalah: Membantah!

2) Masalah ego. Oleh kerana ego seseorang, dia akan membangkang anda dan info anda kerana dia lebih menghargai kata-kata mereka sendiri berbanding kata-kata anda.
Mereka tidak dapat menerima kenyataan bahawa anda telah menemui informasi dan kebenaran yang sangat berharga, di mana mereka tidak menyedarinya terlebih dahulu, dan untuk mempertahankan ego mereka, mereka tidak menerima kebenaran yang anda sampaikan.

3) Kebanyakannya, seseorang itu akan merasa terlalu selesa hidup di dunia yang sentiasa mengejar masa, mereka sendiri tidak mahu mengubah cara hidup mereka dan tidak mempedulikan tentang apa yang sebenarnya sedang berlaku di dunia ini. Terlalu mementingkan diri sendiri. Fokus pada diri sendiri.

4) Mereka percaya dan menghargai suara-suara “Sistem” (media), ia telah menjadi PENENTU UTAMA realiti mereka…

Go do your research. Free yourselves. Wake up!

"Nothing is a coincidence...Everything happens for a reason."

Tolong Click Ads Aku

2009-11-10T15:35:00.002+08:00

Weh korang, tolong la click ads Nuffnang aku nih... sikit lagi nak RM50.. (ye baru nak RM50 zzzz....)

Tau tak budak-budak lain semua ada komuniti klik mengklik sesama sendiri? Bulan-bulan beratus dorang dapat.. Aku ni? Setahun baru RM50.. ces... hampeh...

Anyway, thank you. I will click yours too!

Finally, I got Promoted!

2009-11-09T17:08:00.003+08:00

Setelah sekian lama aku bersabar dalam kerja aku, 3 tahun, akhirnya bos aku naikkan pangkat and gaji. Alhamdulillah. Ni namanya Tuhan nak aku habihkan hutang and hidup cara betul. I hope I can resist shopping and spending, because my intentions are solely to live the right way... (and to get a new washing machine.. hahaha... dah cam helikopter dah).

So, next month will be one hell of a challenging month. To get to know the products and clients. Yeap, I'm back to doing sales. I love doing sales... minus out-stations, late night entertainments, bribe, and stupid things like that. And I got it all the way I want it to be.

Alhamdulillah... I hope I can prove myself.

Pay Homage

2009-11-05T10:42:00.002+08:00

161 Moby Thesaurus words for "homage": acceptance, accolade, acquiescence, adherence, adhesion, admiration, adoration, adulation, allegiance, apotheosis, appreciation, approbation, approval, assent, assigned task, attachment, awe, bend, bending the knee, bepraisement, bob, bona fides, bond, bonne foi, bounden duty, bow, bowing and scraping, breathless adoration, burden, business, call of duty, charge, co-worship, commitment, complaisance, compliance, conformity, congratulation, consent, consideration, constancy, courtesy, cult, cultism, cultus, curtsy, dedication, deference, deification, devoir, devotedness, devotion, dipping the colors, dulia, duteousness, duties and responsibilities, dutifulness, duty, eloge, encomium, esteem, estimation, ethics, eulogium, eulogy, exaggerated respect, exaltation, excessive praise, faith, faithfulness, favor, fealty, fidelity, firmness, flattery, genuflection, glorification, glory, good faith, great respect, hero worship, high regard, hommage, honor, hyperdulia, idolatry, idolization, idolizing, imperative, inclination, kneeling, kowtow, kudos, latria, laud, laudation, line of duty, lionizing, loyalty, magnification, making a leg, meed of praise, mission, must, nod, nonopposal, nonopposition, nonresistance, obedience, obediency, obeisance, obligation, obsequiousness, observance, onus, ought, overpraise, paean, panegyric, passiveness, passivity, place, praise, presenting arms, prestige, prostration, regard, resignation, resignedness, respect, reverence, reverential regard, salaam, salutation, salute, scrape, self-imposed duty, service, servility, servitium, standing at attention, staunchness, steadfastness, subjection, submission, submissiveness, submittal, suit and service, suit service, supineness, tie, transcendent wonder, tribute, troth, true blue, trueness, veneration, willingness, worship, worshiping, yielding

Source: Moby Thesaurus II by Grady Ward, 1.0

Unqualified Preacher

2009-11-04T09:36:00.005+08:00

Someone's mother was telling me one day...
Ada orang-orang surau datang rumah nak jemput orang taman tu pergi dengar ceramah agama Jumaat ni. And that aunty was annoyed and said to me, "As I know ceramah agama is controlled by the Government. I bet this has a hidden agenda to it. Entah-entah pasal politik. Entah apa-apa dia nak ceramahkan."

Aku dah la baru menghadapi trauma and pissful day aritu, malas la nak cakap banyak-banyak. Ye la, aku ni siapa? Sedangkan orang-orang surau pun dia rasa macam tak betul, inikan aku?

My arguement is, do we really need to be 'certified' to bring good news to people? To warn people of danger? To remind people the correct path.

Do you know that the khutbah every Friday written by the Government always has its hidden agenda? Maybe not all the time, pardon me. But there were times it was totally crap, talking about yearly bonuses the Government gave their people, political influenced speeches and all. I know because this is what my hubby tells me. And once in a while I listened to it on TV during my 'pantang' days. So much sometimes I felt it was unnecessary.

Orang surau buat ceramah agama betul-betul bagi ceramah pasal agama la, takdenye pasal politik ke apa. Selalunya dorang cerita la pasal nabi-nabi atau pasal kebahagiaan hidup akhirat atau kehidupan cara Islam sebenarnya atau pasal dajjal dan lain-lain lah. Kalau pasal politik sekali pun, kalau tanak dengar, jangan la dengar. Dalam masjid/surau mana elok cerita pasal duniawi lagipun. They should know better.

I wanted to tell that aunty all that. I wanted to say that I am sad that most of us are all brainwashed to believe that only the 'qualified' may preach.

So, as for me, I am an unqualified preacher too. I don't wear the tudung. I wear sexy clothes. I swear most of the time. So it makes me unqualified to bring people good news or warn people of the surroundings that fogged (still fogging) our eyes to see the real truth.

Why do people jump or become defensive when I speak of Islamic laws? Is it because I'm not qualified? I don't have to be qualified because it is the only law we should know. Our minds are made to believe that the system we live in is correct. Plus, this is not about being religious. This is about our way of life. This is about being manipulated by Satan (okay I'm going too deep again).

Anyway, again, because I am 'unqualified' that I failed to convince people Allah's law. I preached the wrong way.

Sedih bila orang gelakkan cara 'kuno' Allah. Tak sesuai katanya.

Sad to say, I, too, am still trapped in this system created by man, and to make things worse, by the Masonic group since our tok jokong days. I believed that my path was already on the right track, only to know I was going the other direction; to hell. I want to get out of this system. I want to clear all the shit I'm going through and live the right way.

Unfortunately, I can only do it myself, and I can't bring my family and friends along, because I am unqualified and the idea is outdated.

Though....!! (background music semangat) I won't give up. Biarlah orang nak kutuk aku ni tak layak ke, tak cermin diri ke apa... I am standing up for a good cause, and I believe Allah will give me the strength to be a better person. If not physically, at least internally...

So forgive me everybody if I ever made myself unclear of my intentions. I just wanted us to go the right way. Probably I sounded cocky. Well, I was never qualified in the first place. Buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih. In other words, take what you can, leave the crap behind. That's what I always try to do.

Let's walk on the right path. Forget what I said. Let's study this thing on our own. And if anybody would love to share their findings, I am opened to learn more.

Facebook memang buatan SYAITAN

2009-11-03T17:14:00.003+08:00

I dunno whether I should delete my facebook account or not.

I'm still thinking.

Kononnya nak putar sistem supaya kita boleh gunakannya untuk sedarkan orang, alih-alih kita juga yang sesat kan? Nak lawan kuasa celaka ni memang takde daya kalau kurang sabar cam aku ni.

Nak ajar orang bukan senang. Nak sedarkan orang lagi la susah. Yang dah sedar pulak terlebih sensitif sebab orang masih tak faham-faham.

Nothing is funny to me nowadays. Like I said before, I'm paranoid.

Masa dalam gelap... depressed.
Dah sedar... paranoid pulak.

sigh.

Takpe la... biarlah dunia ni. Dah tertulis pun, nak buat camne.

Shawl We Wrap? We Shawl!

2009-10-23T11:20:00.002+08:00

My dear friend Muna just started her online business and she looks like she's doing pretty well!! I'm an online business owner too at my-kawaii.com, so it excites me to introduce you our new chic on board; Shawl We Wrap. Get hold of shawl designs you rarely see out there. Selendang yang menawan hati! Be bold! Be Chic! Enjoy!

I can tell you, it's affordable, and adorable!

The one I wanted sold out in just days. Waiting for the next stock!

Doa-doa mendapat Zuriat

2009-10-13T17:04:00.007+08:00

For my friends who are still trying... Biq pun ada buat post ni, tapi i pun nak post gak la kan.. ada lebih sket. Ini cuma kompilasi doa-doa yang penting dan disarankan. Kalau ada salah sila ajukan.

Bismillah...

Doa untuk dapat zuriat.

Umat Islam digalakkan berdoa kerana ianya merupakan otak ibadah. Di dalam AlQuran terdapat himpunan doa-doa yang diberi oleh Allah untuk kita bacakan setiap hari.

"Ya Musawwir!"
sekiranya seorang isteri yang sudah lama belum mempunyai anak, maka cubalah ikhtiar ini dengan berpuasa selama 7 hari dari hari Ahad hingga Sabtu. Di waktu hendak berbuka puasa, ambil segelas air & dibacakan "Ya Musawwir" sebanyak 21 x, kemudian diminum air tersebut untuk berbuka puasa. Bagi sang suami, hendaklah berbuat perkara yang sama tetapi hanya dengan berpuasa selama 3 hari. Kemudian pada waktu hendak berjimak, bacalah zikir ini sebanyak 10 x, InsyaAllah akan dikurniakan anak yang soleh.

Ikutilah contoh Nabi Ibrahim a.s. dan Nabi Zakaria a.s., masing-masing tidak putus-putus berdoa kepada Allah untuk mendapat zuriat yang soleh. Mereka diduga sehingga usia yang tua dan uzur sebelum mendapat zuriat.

Doa Nabi Ibrahim a.s.

Ya Allah! Engkau mengetahui apa yang saya sembunyikan dan apa yang saya lahirkan, terimalah uzur saya; sesungguhnya Engkau mengetahui hajat ku, berikanlan permintaanku dan Engkau mengetahui apa yang ada pada diriku, maka ampunilah dosa ku.’

Doa Nabi Zakaria. a.s.

Tuhanku, janganlah engkau tinggalkan daku seorang diri padahal engkau Tuhan yang paling baik dari segala orang yang mewarisi

Surah Al-Anbiya:21:89

Dan (sebutkanlah peristiwa) Nabi Zakaria, ketika ia merayu kepada Tuhannya dengan berkata: "Wahai Tuhanku! Janganlah Engkau biarkan daku seorang diri (dengan tidak meninggalkan zuriat); dan Engkaulah jua sebaik-baik yang mewarisi".

Surah Ali-Imran 3:38

Or

"Ya Tuhan berilah aku dari sisi Engkau seorang anak yang soleh. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pendengar permohonanku"

Doa sebelum persetubuhan

Dengan nama Allah , Ya Allah ! jauhkanlah kami daripada syaitan dan juahkanlah syaitan daripada apa yang Engkau kurniakan kepada kami (anak)

Doa ini amat penting diamalkan oleh setiap pasangan suami isteri bacaan doa sebelum melakukan persetubuhan demi untuk menghindar dari gangguan syaitan keatas janin kerana diriwayatkan bahwa setan boleh menganggu apabila pembentukan janin berlaku. Mungkinkah ini yang menyebabkan kecacatan pada janin dan kehamilan Molar.

InsyaAllah... God knows what's best for us all.

Humairah @ 8 months

2009-10-13T15:02:00.007+08:00

Dah seminggu Myra demam.. tu yg tak sentuh2 blog ni.. takde mood. But she's getting better. Went to clinic twice, lastly I noticed she had a hard time swallowing, so I suspected that she had sore throat. But previously she drank just fine. I guessed it developed late. So, I took her to PPUM, and true enough, her throat was bad... She's getting better now. Making sure she finishes her antibiotic.

We went to Biq's Raya Open House the other weekend. It was great, food and all. She, as always, had a theme. And this time was "Baju Raya". So the three of us wore our baju raya (I wore last year's, I only have one pair this year) including Myra! Her baju kurung was made by her Tante Fara!

Guess who won the lucky draw (for babies)? Myra and Sami! hehehe... Myra is always lucky in these kinda things. I hope it stays that way. Coz her parents aren't that fortunate in winning anything! hehehehe..

Pics credits to: debygorgeousz and biqque

My mind is so full of things...

2009-10-01T11:23:00.010+08:00

Wow.. I left this blog for quite some time. Imagine in just a few weeks, I feel my head is loaded with stuffs that my body can't comprehend sometimes. Too much knowledge can sometimes damage our focus. It's just because you already know too much. Patut la orang alim-alim tak banyak cakap kosong, banyak benda dia tau kot. I'm not saying I'm alim, hellooooo.... knowing too much doesn't mean I know about religion. Knowing about satan is more like it.. hahaha.. that can really load my head up. That's why I get burdened. If you know a lot about religion your head should be lighter, not fogged up like mine! hahaha...

Anyway, again, I'm not saying I know a lot about satan though. I have been studying more deeply about the One Eyed Dajjal and now I'm being paranoid in everything I see. My point here is, sometimes we already know about the Truth, but yet we still ignore our duties to Allah. Contohnya, apasal susah sangat nak solat 5 kali sehari? Dah tau tugas setan melalaikan kita pun kita stilllll ikut cara salah, betul tak? We preach about the Truth yet we don't stand by it faithfully.

The answer is, we are so trapped in this SYSTEM (created by our enemies) that makes us forget about our duties. Though we must always remind ourselves that there shall be no REASON for our negligence. la hawla wala quwwata illa billah (There is no power or strength except with Allah). Tuhan tarik kita punya daya baru tau nak terkapai mintak ampun. We're trapped in this 9-5 "career", banking system, tv entertainment, false history, masonic leaders, etc. EVERYTHING is made to make us forget. Kalau orang berubah menjadi alim kita panggil poyo. Kalau kita tak kerja dengan company besar kita tak dipandang tinggi. Status and pangkat menjadi rebutan. Ilmu pengetahuan didahulukan bukannya ilmu agama. You see how things are making us think that the Right is Wrong and the Wrong is Right? That IS their plan. If you want to know, Ilmu Agama IS THE ONLY ILMU for us. The rest are just side dishes. Bukannya tak penting. Take Ibnu Sina for example. He's so knowledgeable and yet he puts Islam as a base. Sebagai akar pada semua benda. Now that's the right way. How sad we're so narrowed down to just these few paths. 6 tahun masuk sekolah, 18 tahun masuk universiti, 21 tahun kerja bersama ahli keparat, 31 tahun.. masih garu kepala nak bayar hutang. Trapped. Not that we don't want to get out of this mess, but the architecture of the demon is so powerful you simply can't do anything about it. Actually, we can. Nak taknak aje.. betul tak?

Ponder.. ponder.. ponder.. I hate the word ponder. What's the point of pondering when you don't take action on it?

Itulahnye, semuanya bergantung pada iman...

Other than that, something came up and hope it all goes well. Will update when it's all green light. I've also been busy listening to (despite all the above said, fark) goth metal music, for jamming sessions only. Suka-suka session. I don't have a freaking hobby so lay off a bit on this, ok? I've been listening to it so much that my baby Myra has started to growl!! Oh help! hahaha... she's just adorable.

And last but not least, my Raya this year was so-so. No visiting relatives so it was kinda quiet. But I had fun in Penang as usual. Makan makan makan. And we took hubby to Kek Lok Si for the first time. Glad he was happy too!

So then, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin.

*All the above written spontaneously. I might blabber the wrong things. So... maaf zahir batin lah.. hehe..

p/s: blogspot cam taik sbb susah nak load gambar. tahun depan la aku upload gambar myra pakai baju kurung.

Buka Puasa @ Pizza San Francisco Wangsa Maju

2009-09-08T09:42:00.010+08:00

After deciding not to do potluck for our buka puasa this year, and after juggling between rice and western/italian food, all had come to an agreement to have it at Pizza San Francisco Wangsa Maju. Parking was easy and it's kiddy-friendly. Not to mention air-cond and good food. Price wise, we were budgeting below RM40 per head, and buffet is a no-no when kids are around, especially babies. I'm glad everyone understood the situation. Nak taknak western dan italian la kita...

To our surprise, most of us went to the salon to set up our hair. Hahaha... nampak sangat gumbira nak jumpa member-member. Biq dengan rambut sotong dia, Deb potong pendek terus sebab stylist lama dia telah merosakkan rambut dia (butchered katanya hahaha), Elly and I trimmed and blow dry je kot? Tapi agak musykil itu Arab adakah pergi salon jua? Masih belum diketahui... Skin dgn flower scrunchynye. Aisha and Fara go au naturale...

Steak was on Promo RM12.90

Oxtail Stew (about RM21. Tak ingat harga)

Nachos (RM14 kot)

Lamb Shank (RM23 kot)

Taking a breather

My baby biting me

Fara yang kononnya tanak gambar dia diambil hehe

The girls, with Skin substituted with Sharul XD

Tak cukup dengan makan, nak pulak lepak minum teh tarik. So, we all headed down to Studio Cafe Wangsa Maju next to Aicu Kopitiam, satu deret dengan Cheng Ho. My only complaint is that the price is just a bit too much. Dah macam harga hotel. Teh tarik RM3.90, teh ais RM4.90. Nasib baik teh dia okay. The rest I don't even bother to look. But service was okay and the place was quite descent. But I ain't going back there again.

Biq with her jokes

Myra getting cheekier everyday

Tak puas lagi tu, nak kena sesak-sesak di Danau Kota. The girls bought shoes and sandals. Jalan punya jalan boleh hujan lebat pulak tetiba. That was about 1 a.m. I think. Wanted to go to Mali after that but it was still raining. We headed home and sahur around our housing area with Biq and Sharul.

It was one hell of a weekend that the next day we just stayed home the whole day.

Thank to HubbyMyra, DebNan, BiqSharul, SkinHasrulSami, EllyArab, AishaWan and Fara for making this gathering a memorable one! Lain kali, Zamani cakap jangan lupa ajak dia. haha..

Pic credits to debygorgeousz

Humairah @ 7 months - Walker Shopping

2009-08-24T13:13:00.005+08:00

Oh humairah... shopping walker ye? Pandai pulak tu testing-testing. Memang macam mama, belek 2 jam baru beli.. hehehe...

Acar Buah Hajjah Rubiah Lubis

2009-08-24T12:44:00.011+08:00

Cheap cheap cheap...
You can't find any cheaper than this...

RM 8 / pack
(approx. weight: 320g)

picture may vary
Rasanya masam manis pedas gitu.. slurppp...

Selling fast! Alhamdulillah disambut baik. New batch on the way... yumm!

Leave a comment to order. Jangan lupa tinggalkan email ke apa ke...

*pic credit to adarasa

Pengisytiharan Hospital Angkatan Tentera Tuanku Mizan

2009-08-20T15:44:00.016+08:00

Today, the Yang di-Pertuan Agong Tuanku Sultan Mizan Zainal Abidin has officially announced the Hospital Angkatan Tentera Tuanku Mizan (formerly or aka HATKL 95). Because it is an army hospital, it was quite protocol and kinda grand with big bands playing and all.

I'm one of the contractors in making this hospital a success. My company supplies all the medical equipments and I can say I felt kinda proud to be involved in such a big turn-key project. Although I'm no big shot in it, just a small role. I think this is the only hospital that has a Decontamination System and a Hyperbaric Chamber. I don't know, you tell me. I'm still new in this field.

click to enlarge
part of the team

lineup askar
side riders di-raja
our king
hospital layoutpic credits to azizah

Next... hospital orang gila... teka la kat mana? hehehe...

theStar News: Scarred by fury of a woman

2009-08-19T09:50:00.004+08:00

JOHOR BARU: “I never ever want to see her again,” a 25-year-old police constable said of his ex-wife who allegedly splashed acid on him and his girlfriend at his home in Taman Selesa Jaya early Monday morning.

Jamaluddin Mat Isa said he had always known that his ex-wife would not leave him alone after he divorced her but he did not expect her to scar him and his girlfriend for life.

“We were downstairs for a while before we went upstairs to bed when I suddenly felt a burning sensation on my back.

“When I turned around, I saw my ex-wife splashing a solution which burnt my chest and hands,” he said yesterday when met at the Sultan Aminah Hospital here where he was warded for severe acid burns.
Victim of jealousy: Jamaluddin showing the injuries he sustained from the acid attack at his home in Taman Selesa Jaya at the Sultanah Aminah Hospital here Tuesday.

The woman had also hurled abuses at his girlfriend and even waited in the house after the assault before police arrived and arrested her.

Jamaluddin added that his 25-year-old girlfriend was also injured on the face, chest and thigh in the attack.

He divorced his wife in May and was scheduled to get the relevant court documents after Hari Raya.

“She must have been waiting in the house when my girlfriend and I returned home after supper at about 4am,” said Jamaluddin, who has been with the police force for three years.

His married the woman last year but the union lasted only eight months.

“We got married after being in love and having a long distance relationship for several years before I joined the police force.

“I never imagined that she would be such a possessive wife who never allowed me to go out alone anywhere except when I was working.

“Once she tried to commit suicide by leaping from the fourth floor of some flats opposite my home as she believed I was having an affair because I came home late from work,” he said.

Jamaluddin said that he wanted to take his ex-wife for psychiatric help but she always insisted that she was fine.

Asked whether he would forgive her for what she has done, he said: “I will lodge a report after I am well and I never want to see her again.”

Jamaluddin said he last met her in court in June, adding that he hoped that his ex-wife would be locked away and be given psychiatric help.

Nusajaya OCPD Supt Abd Aziz Ahmad said the suspect was under remand.

If convicted of causing grevious hurt, she could face a maximum jail term of 20 years and a fine or whipping.

dibitz : Am I the only one who noticed the part where he was in the same house with his "girlfriend" at about 4 am and about to go to bed???? Aku salah baca ke apa? Shouldn't this man be punished for "some crime"?? Why are we focusing on this small crime instead? Alaaa setakat luka sikit-sikit, dosa besar tu tanak kira ke? Sape yang patut kena sebat skg? Hmmm.... somebody please explain.